I'm in a no-mood-to-study-mode and thats really bad.
I'm just really angry at myself right now.
It even angers myself when I'm making him the victim of my stupid mood swings.

argh hate myself so much sometimes.

It feels like I'm just throwing my parents trust and confidence in me into the drain.
and right now.. I think I've just thrown mine away.

Phang Jia Wei you're a total idiot.And there's no turning back now =(

A Mother's Touch

I was having a really bad stomach discomfort last night.
I went to bed last night hoping that the pain and discomfort will fade, then mum came.

"Come let me rub your back, it'll make you feel better"

Oh gosh, it really was comfortable and it reminded me of how she would always rub my back when I was little... where I was even more susceptible to flus and colds and fevers and whatever diseases available. Hmm. It's been such a long time since she ever rubbed my back... and I think I almost could have cried last night.

In a few minutes I was feeling alright already and my eyes were drooping. Then she tucked me to sleep. Feels like I was that 5 year old little girl again.

It's amazing how just a simple rub can cure a day's of misery. ( oh lets say i was suffering more than just a stomach ache yesterday)
I think it must be something in a mother's Touch.
A touch that no other can have.
A touch full of love and healing properties.

I love you Mummy... for all that you have done all these years.. wheter I was sick or when I wasn't .. you were always there with your gentle touch.

And I'll make sure that I'll get better soon... I'll work hard.. so one day.. in return... I can be your gentle touch when you need it the most.

Feeling

I've been thinking a lot.
Wheter if its all true. Wheter what I'm doing is right. Or it was just my imagination.
But you told me to be confident and I'm the one.
And I suddenly remembered someone told me.

"没有思维下地清楚明白就是feeling"

because if we start to think too much.. you'll give yourself excuses and reasons.
yes and I think you gave me that feeling of love.
And i think ... its all that matters =)
I'll keep hanging on to it.
Because... I'm quite sure... you feel the same way too.

After Trials

Yesterday went out with my bunch of a levels friends to midvalley for 2012 and to celebrate Vicky's birthday. Oh she's the youngest in our class. Its amazing that our gang of 7 people already makes up half the class... haha. Don't ask me why but our population is decreasing tremendously.

Went to Sushi Zanmai for lunch... I think we took half an hour to order our food? because we spent most of our time chatting and photoshooting instead of deciding what to eat 1st. xD Bunch of crazy girls. haha. Oh!! I never ever realised the wonders of cold sake before this it was FANTASTIC. I guess it was the same for Candy too as she went high and almost drunk after a few sips.Lol.

" Candy are you alright ah?"
*Hugs pillar*
" Yea I'm ok...." *Spaces out and looks at me*
"Jia Wei how come you're suddenly so tall one?"

Lol xD

Went to cosmic bowl after that for a few games.. Then 2012!
Well if you ask me to rate the show out of 10 I would say 5. My personal opinion, the show isn't that GREAT as what it seems, its concentrating too much on cold blooded ugly politicians, a scientist in dilemma, a family who just is too lucky to be true (ok, fine there are miracles in the world but... the land just crumbles away nicely only right after them EVERYTIME) and all the surviving people. And hey I'm surprised they didn't even convey any message about conserving and saving the earth? And I think it would have more impact on me if they were concentrating on the helpless dying to be people facing those earth quakes and tsunami and all. Maybe I'm just depressing but I'm just being realistic. Oh but one thing, the CG is realllly good. But its overall an okay movie, if you have 2 and a half hours and 11 ringgit extra to spend ya go for it.

After movie we rushed back to ucsi then went our separate ways... met up with dear in pasar malam and spent my whole evening with him. =) Really happy and appreciated that he came down to pasar malam just because I asked him to and being able to spend time with him out of the library is just great =). Usually we'll just be in the library and I know that's so depressing for him. I hope he had fun and enjoyed himself last night... because all I can give him is just this much. Anyways thanks dear * muaks*

and my whole day was gone just like that. I haven't go out in such a long time haha. Tiring but fun. Im lazy to upload the photos just go to facebook and it'll be there.

Sayonara Sollitaire

Daisuki to omou kara ne kizutsu ittari tomadottari
Tsumetai hoho wo yose atte kokoro ga umareta
Itsumo ima sugu ni aitai

Mukuchi ni naruhodo suki yo yasashi sa doushitara mieru no
Dakishimete motto tsuyoku atataka na mune wo shinjiru yo
Sayonara solitia ashita he

Chiisana watashi dakara zenbu demo tarinai yone
Nanni mo kakusanai de anata ni agetai
Mada shiroi yoake wo miokutte

Konnani daiji na hito ni doushite meguri aetano to
Itai hodo tsunagu yubi de sabishi sa kienu yume wo miru no
Sayonara solitia

Mou hitori jyanai kara ashita mezameru no anata to

Daisuki na hito dakara ne sobani iru mamotteru
Anata he tsunagaru daichi ni umerete yokatta

It's because I love you so much that I hurt you, that I'm so confused
Coming close to your cold cheek, my soul was born
I always want to see you right away

I love you so much I can't speak, so how will you see my kindness?
Hold me tighter, I believe in your warm heart
Farewell, solitaire, to tomorrow

Because I'm so small, I give everything, but it's not enough
This hand, which can't hide anything at all, I want to give to you
We still have to see off the white dawn

Why was I able to run across someone this important?
Holding on to these fingers that they almost hurt, I see the dream that had disappeared into sadness
Farewell, solitaire

Because I'm no longer alone, tomorrow awakens, and I'm with you

Because I have someone whom I love so much, I'm here by your side, protecting you
I'm so glad that I was born on this earth that connects me to you

Problems

Trials. Exams.
Health.
Relationships.
Me.

Yay! I get down too easily sometimes.

Confession

Last night we met our 1st bump in our way.

It was actually quite a small one, such that it shouldn't matter at all.

I already knew it would be a bumpy and rocky pathway. Far more lies ahead us.

But I was a little hurt.

I was afraid. I loss my confidence in myself.

Will I be able to overcome the next one coming?

This is where I need you. I'm not as strong as I thought I was.

Please, hold my hand tighter.

At least next time when the next bump comes, I'll be more prepared.

We'll have each other to lead the way and to prevent the fall. =)

It's because I trust you.

It's because all that you've shown me.

It's all because. I love you Chua Siong Hui. =)

Breakthrough

I know this is so not me.
I have to admit.... I've changed a lot... I'm not the Jia Wei I used to be.
This is so new to me.... but I'm learning a lot from this and I'm widening my horizons.

It's because of him. My dear.

Yup people... I have a boyfriend now.

I'm amazed myself.

To Ju Vern and gang... I'll explain more in detail the next time we meet =)

Mentos Chews.

Victoria : Mentos are health pills ok? It contains sucrose... glucose.... all the nutrients that you need.

I really like her comment on her overdosage of Mentos chews.
She finished one whole stick of the Mentos in just an hour.

Someone please tell her its not. lol.
Oh yea. Its explosive with cola.

I'm confused again.
Gah.
Hate myself for doing all this stupid stuff to myself.

It's all a game of this or that, now versus then
better off against worse for wear

You are the dreamer and we are the dream.
I could write it better than you ever felt it.

So hum hallelujah,
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.
A teenage vow in a parking lot
"Till tonight do us part"
I sing the blues and swallow them too

~ Hum Hallelujah by Fall Out Boy

Desperate for attention.

Maybe that's what I am.

Maybe that's why I made such a huge and hasty decision.

ARGGGGH

Someone educate and enlighten me. Please.

Rahsia Perempuan

The lyrics sounds so wrong at first right?
Guess what its the mind that is wrong.
I bet 9 out of 10 people will be thinking in "that" direction.
I did too. lol.
Nevertheless its a good song in terms of the melody and its (misleading) lyrics. haha.
Guys. Take note of what this song is trying to say. =D

| Read | Read | Read | Read | Read |

" Love is like Heaven

But it hurts like Hell"

So true.

Saw this on a table today. The person who wrote this must be having a bad time.
Well but love is good in a sense that it gives you the taste of both Hell and Heaven.
Makes you try harder to reach the land of angels.
Which reminds me of another line I saw on a T-shirt

"There is no remedy to love
But to Love more"

"Heaven" is around you if you are willing to try.

"Don't feel bad for the suicidal cats
Gotta kill themselves 9 times before they can get it right"
"West Coast Smokers" by Fall Out Boy

Another interesting line that I like.
They'll learn how to treasure their lives even more.

"Behind every strong man is a woman"

One very famous phrase that got me thinking:
Men are strong for having women looking after their backs.
Then who will be looking after women backs when the men is in front of them?
So girls, don't depend too much on guys. Lol. It's still up to ourselves sometimes.

People who understands my title would see what this whole post is about.
This is my way of seeing the lines I addressed.
Just a thought. Don't have to take me seriously people!

Cinnamoroll!

I have a sudden liking to Cinnamoroll.(and Friends) >.<
They're so cute and adorable!!

Now, what you are going to see is the ultimate CUTE factor.
Just a warning towards those who can't stand cuteness.
This is trailer for the movie.



Not cute enough for you?
THIS is the higher dosage.



well, that was a bit TOO cute for me.

Can you believe that I'm going to be 18 soon?
Me can't either.
Lol. =D

Patriotism

It's always this patriotic month of the year that we would have

The election of a committee
The brainstorming session which most of the people don't really care.
The unfinished lines and plot and the overdue script.
The 20 minutes travel from the class to the dewan.
Last minute rehearsals with unchoreographed moves.
Actors/ Actresses that are scattered everywhere in all directions but not on the stage.
Inattentive people with their heads burried in books and homeworks.
Props that are forever missing or was never there.
A tired radio playing the same old tracks repeatedly.
Actors/Actresses that wasn't paying attention and was slow by half a beat.
The despair, anger and stress of the director.
Meetings and discussions through msn or after school.
Unfinished touch ups that seem to increase by the second.

and yet
we'll miraculously manage to

Grab full attention of the whole dewan throughout the performance.
Pick up some humour and spontanuity from our leading actors and actresses.
Hear the laughter of the audience.
Actually get the whole performance done.
Earn quite a number of compliments and praises.
Have fun despite the misery of the rehearsals.

Don't know about the others but through all this I've developed this patriotism and attachment towards our class ever since our first debut, "Leftenan Adnan".
Yea, sure there is all the last minute preparations and attitude problems, but hey
It's OUR thing and I think it would be totally different without it.It makes us, US.

I was, still am , will still be a part of all this,and
I miss all of this and all of you so much.

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I received this from my Chemistry Lecturer.
He's like 50+ but i never expected him to be active in Desktop Dating.
LOL
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It makes me wonder how a certain Mr X can ever afford to lose his job when
-He has a family of 5 to feed
-He has a son in coma after a suicide attempt and all the medical fees to attend to.

by

-Being so unfocused and blur at his job
-Being so untruthful
-Being so irresponsible
-"Falling In Love" with his boss's housemaid.
-Harassing his boss's housemaid!

And he just had to make 2 horrendous scratches on his boss's Merc after he got fired.
But I guess the damage he made on the Merc will never be as severe as the one he inflict upon his family and his own reputation.
What a foolish, twisted and revengeful soul.
I used to give him the benefit of doubt, but it seems that he doesn't deserve it anyway.

I am so sorry for his wife and kids. And I hope that one day he will come back to his senses and take a good look at how much his family is depending on him.

And yet, perhaps, I've never been in his shoes before so I wouldn't know.

Far Away.

I've always loved the song Far Away from Nickelback.

I'm loving it even more now.

Because it reminded me of not only mine but your courage too.

It was fate and chance.

And I thank you for still being there.

Sinking

I really didn't expect this.

IDIOT!!!!

It's all your fault.

Stupid IDIOT!!!

I can't believe this is happening.

But I guess I'm the biggest fool here for falling into this.

Speaking of timing.

Maybe, I should give you a try.

Candy's Birthday

This is a post requested by Candy. Yea. That's her.

I don't really know what to write cause Joseph and Jef done most of the job already but I'll try my best.

So 13th of July. I think our whole class could have remember this date for the rest of our lives- a certain person has been announcing to the whole world that its her birthday ever since day 1. Hoh, Candy?
Yea so we decided to have a huge celebration for her at Chilis, Midvalley, with the crew celebrating it with us as a suprise. They were very friendly, and helped a lot with the cake. Haha.
Rosalind and I excused ourselves and went to Secret Recipe to buy the cake.
We were like, " Ok. What cake does Candy like?"."Dunno leh, only knows she doesn't like mint and durian."
The supervisor at Secret Recipe was recommending so many cakes but we were so indecisive she was a bit impatient and annoyed with us , I think. =p. But we can't be blamed cause all the cakes we wanted weren't available. =(. We finally decided to have blueberry cheesecake.
But the suprise was a real success, cause Candy was about to cry when the cake came out and we had a blast after that. Here are photos.

On the way.....

While waiting...
The guys with Candy.

The gals with Candy.

The highlight of the day.......
Birthday Cake!No lah... just kidding. Highlight of the day.... the birthday girl, Candy.( with the birthday cake. lol)Group photo with the bday gal!

Me and my salad.After the meal...... Window shopping in The GardensHehe.... I'm posting a lot of Victoria cause this is the very rare chance of her appearing in front of the camera.
Love the group photo!

Well I guess thats all for now. I hope you enjoyed this post, Candy!
Before I end, this is a special tribute for you.

HAHAHA!!!Caught you on camera! Naughty girl conteng on people ahh....

Oklah, the real thing lah!
Hope you remain as happy and bubbly as you are forever!!
Sometimes you are literally a candy to me, you're very sweet and comforting. =)
We hearts you!!

First Day Of Work!

I've got a part-time(compulsory) job in campus.It's my first day today.

This is where I work.This place is called the i-counter.
My job?
Give directions, take messages, pick up phone calls, stare at the lobby and the happening events.
Like this.What I did today?
Homework.

Only one dude asked for so called "information"
Dude: You working here?
*Nods*
Dude:Where is the management office?
*Points at the 2nd floor* "Up there"
My first and only customer today. Yay?

Its not a bad job actually.
At least I get time for homework and studying. lol
I'm doing this for the whole sem! Hope everything goes well. =)

PS: Special thanks to Candy, Cappy, Kiir and Chee Kong( Chin) for the 1 hour accompany.
I am really grateful =')

Whatever you do
I'll be two steps behind you
Wherever you go
and I'll be there to remind you
that it only takes a minute of your precious time
to turn around and I'll be two steps behind.
~ Two Steps Behind by Def Leppard

My sincerity.

**
Head like a steel trap
Wish I didn't I didn't I didn't I didn't I didn't I didn't I didn't
I don't just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness
~Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On a Bad Bet by Fall Out Boy

My honesty.
***
Am I thinking too much?

Thailand trip.

My Thailand trip this time was real relaxing. I'm glad that I went. ^.^So long for the swine flu worries.
No one was wearing masks. Same goes to the Phang family here. lol.
For those who are wondering, I didn't quarantine myself and is back in college. Tee Hee.
So there IS the chance of UCSI being closed down. lol. Touch wood UCSI people!
Coming back to main topic,
Day 1

Slept through almost the whole day in the van and hotel. Went to a local pasar malam in Krabi after dinner. It was pretty cool. Here are some photos.

Sleep.

Jia Le and me

Jie Jie and Jia LeIn Pasar MalamCute leh....Look at the juices! Dim Sum like delicacyPineapple bomb!

Day 2

Speed boated around Phi Phi Islands and went snorkelling. I was right about the "first time snorkelling being more pretty than its actually worth", cause the dead corals really isnt THAT pretty anymore. The pretty thing that attracted me is the handsome guy on the same speed boat as us. lol. More photos.Dad and Mum

Three sisters! Jie Jie me and Jia LeMe beside the beach

Day 3
The best day of all the others. Had a guide that took us out of sea and explored a sea cave and went snorkelling. This Thai dude can speak Malay! He's really nice and caring =)
This conversation was really funny.
Dad: Hei perahu ada baju keselamatan tak?
Guide: Ada, tapi kalau tak ada pun tak apa, saya heret semua!
He really pulled us into and through the sea cave, cause we would never could have swam through the strong waves and high tide(he's really strong and this guy didn't need a life jacket!) . It was really scary but exciting at the same time! After the cave we saw an opening to a land, and we reached the middle of the island/cave it was so COOL. Once in a lifetime experience. It rained after that, so freezing cold.Only photo I have of day 3 is this cause it was all too wet for photos.

Day 4

Shopping in Hatyai before heading back to KL. Love this dress!Family photo.Window view from hotel roomReally like this!Illustrated movie ads along the streets which is quite cool.
Transformers and Harry Potter lol.

Yea... so basically thats how my 4 days 3 nights trip went. Feel free to ask me personally to know more. =D

Dilemma

I'm in a dilemma now.
Because my family and I will be going to Thailand, Phi Phi Island and Krabi for a snorkelling trip on Friday.
That means exposing ourselves to a higher risk of getting H1N1.
Damn. Bad timing bad place.

Reasons For going
1. We're going to the seaside!!! I must enjoy nature before I die in sem 2, 3 units in total.
2. Snorkelling!! Last time I went it was beautiful.
3. It's the only time and chance I can enjoy a holiday trip with my family this year, before sem 2 starts.
4. Dad planned this since last year and he really wants a trip with us.

Reasons Against going ( Touch WOOD)
1. H1N1 on the run now.... I seriously cannot risk that. I'm still so young!!
2. Chances of quarantine is sky high..... as much as I like to go I can't miss my classes, which will be commencing on Monday.
3. I've been there before.
4. It was my first time snorkelling when I last went.... everything may be a little more pretty than what its actually worth.
5. Chances of Tsunami?
6.We have to be wearing masks all the time and sterilize everything and so, so that kills the relaxing mood of the trip.

6 against 4. But I'm not given a choice.
Help people!! T.T

"Feeling" is the key to the fundamental truth.

because

There are so many things that a rational mind cannot explain and achieve.

Here, my journey begins.

Day out with Rosalind!

Today I went to Times Square and Sungei Wang with Rosalind, my first ever UCSI friend that brought us all together =D
Too bad Cappy and Victoria weren't able to join us. =(
But we had fun anywyas.
Bought lots of clothes and shoes and bag!!
I think I suprised her a little with how much I bought today lol.

This is what we had for.... er hem... lunch.Lol.
Krispy Kreme! Hehe.

Thanks gal for making my day so fun and relaxing!! =)
Lets go again next hols !

My Cheesecake!

This is the result of my( and Jia Le's too) chocolate cheesecake.
Yes what a horrible state.
The oreo cookie base was loose and it just crumbled everywhere.
Taste wise.... it was kinda weird.
Weird in a sense that the chocolate and cheese taste covered each other that you can't taste the chocolate or either the cheese.
So when I ate it it didn't feel like I'm eating chocolate cheesecake =(
But the texture was right. =)
Anyways.... will try harder next time!!
My next attempt: Brownies!!
XD!! Can't wait!!

Photos!

I'll let the photos do most of the talking in this post.

3-6-2009

This was right after our last paper, chemistry. Went to Fun Ok with Candy, Cappy, Rosalind and Chee Kong for the very first time to have lunch.

Watermelon and carrot juice

What we did while waiting.

The girls gang bullied him!

Went to 1 utama with Kiir Rosalind and Jef the 2nd day (4-6-2009)
Cute prints on the wall.

Lunch in Sakae Sushi

While waiting for the bus.

I didn't get a photo of the ktm cause it was too crowded and scary.... but it was hell of an experience. Ask me to know more.


10-6-2009
Last day of my one week Buddha Class. Great experience. Great night we had lots of fun.Us bunch of the teenagers(quite a small bunch) having a photo with our shi fu.
We arranged this!Mummy Jie Jie and meThe guy who drew this is such an artistic genius. He is a left hander and he's a primary school deputy headmaster too! Lol.This happened at the end.


Yesterday, 2 new kitties joined our family!!
So now besides Sammy, the fella who owned my bio textbook here,


We have Suzie ( White) and Lily ( Brown)!!!
Edit: The white is now called Cream and the brown is now called Mocha.
(Suzie and Lily sounded horrible lol. =P)Yin Yang sisters.

They're so tiny and cute!!
They mew, then drink milk, then rub against each other, then sleep.
A repeating sequence.Soooooo CUTE!!



Today: Jia Le and I did baking!! Chocolate cheese cake!! Well she did most of the work and Ｉjust helped a little actually.Yeesh. My specs falling to the tip of nose like auntie.

YAY!

Look at how Jia Le is beaming =D
Random photo.Twins forever!!

Cheese cake has to be refridgerated for 1 whole day... so I haven't tasted it.
Should be ok.
Maybe I'll post it tomorrow. Stay tuned!