Sunday, November 22, 2009

A Mother's Touch

I was having a really bad stomach discomfort last night.
I went to bed last night hoping that the pain and discomfort will fade, then mum came.

"Come let me rub your back, it'll make you feel better"

Oh gosh, it really was comfortable and it reminded me of how she would always rub my back when I was little... where I was even more susceptible to flus and colds and fevers and whatever diseases available. Hmm. It's been such a long time since she ever rubbed my back... and I think I almost could have cried last night.

In a few minutes I was feeling alright already and my eyes were drooping. Then she tucked me to sleep. Feels like I was that 5 year old little girl again.

It's amazing how just a simple rub can cure a day's of misery. ( oh lets say i was suffering more than just a stomach ache yesterday)
I think it must be something in a mother's Touch.
A touch that no other can have.
A touch full of love and healing properties.

I love you Mummy... for all that you have done all these years.. wheter I was sick or when I wasn't .. you were always there with your gentle touch.

And I'll make sure that I'll get better soon... I'll work hard.. so one day.. in return... I can be your gentle touch when you need it the most.

Thursday, November 19, 2009

Feeling

I've been thinking a lot.
Wheter if its all true. Wheter what I'm doing is right. Or it was just my imagination.
But you told me to be confident and I'm the one.
And I suddenly remembered someone told me.

"没有思维下地清楚明白就是feeling"


because if we start to think too much.. you'll give yourself excuses and reasons.
yes and I think you gave me that feeling of love.
And i think ... its all that matters =)
I'll keep hanging on to it.
Because... I'm quite sure... you feel the same way too.

After Trials

Yesterday went out with my bunch of a levels friends to midvalley for 2012 and to celebrate Vicky's birthday. Oh she's the youngest in our class. Its amazing that our gang of 7 people already makes up half the class... haha. Don't ask me why but our population is decreasing tremendously.

Went to Sushi Zanmai for lunch... I think we took half an hour to order our food? because we spent most of our time chatting and photoshooting instead of deciding what to eat 1st. xD Bunch of crazy girls. haha. Oh!! I never ever realised the wonders of cold sake before this it was FANTASTIC. I guess it was the same for Candy too as she went high and almost drunk after a few sips.Lol.

" Candy are you alright ah?"
*Hugs pillar*
" Yea I'm ok...." *Spaces out and looks at me*
"Jia Wei how come you're suddenly so tall one?"

Lol xD

Went to cosmic bowl after that for a few games.. Then 2012!
Well if you ask me to rate the show out of 10 I would say 5. My personal opinion, the show isn't that GREAT as what it seems, its concentrating too much on cold blooded ugly politicians, a scientist in dilemma, a family who just is too lucky to be true (ok, fine there are miracles in the world but... the land just crumbles away nicely only right after them EVERYTIME) and all the surviving people. And hey I'm surprised they didn't even convey any message about conserving and saving the earth? And I think it would have more impact on me if they were concentrating on the helpless dying to be people facing those earth quakes and tsunami and all. Maybe I'm just depressing but I'm just being realistic. Oh but one thing, the CG is realllly good. But its overall an okay movie, if you have 2 and a half hours and 11 ringgit extra to spend ya go for it.

After movie we rushed back to ucsi then went our separate ways... met up with dear in pasar malam and spent my whole evening with him. =) Really happy and appreciated that he came down to pasar malam just because I asked him to and being able to spend time with him out of the library is just great =). Usually we'll just be in the library and I know that's so depressing for him. I hope he had fun and enjoyed himself last night... because all I can give him is just this much. Anyways thanks dear * muaks*

and my whole day was gone just like that. I haven't go out in such a long time haha. Tiring but fun. Im lazy to upload the photos just go to facebook and it'll be there.

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Sayonara Sollitaire

Daisuki to omou kara ne kizutsu ittari tomadottari
Tsumetai hoho wo yose atte kokoro ga umareta
Itsumo ima sugu ni aitai

Mukuchi ni naruhodo suki yo yasashi sa doushitara mieru no
Dakishimete motto tsuyoku atataka na mune wo shinjiru yo
Sayonara solitia ashita he

Chiisana watashi dakara zenbu demo tarinai yone
Nanni mo kakusanai de anata ni agetai
Mada shiroi yoake wo miokutte

Konnani daiji na hito ni doushite meguri aetano to
Itai hodo tsunagu yubi de sabishi sa kienu yume wo miru no
Sayonara solitia

Mou hitori jyanai kara ashita mezameru no anata to

Daisuki na hito dakara ne sobani iru mamotteru
Anata he tsunagaru daichi ni umerete yokatta

It's because I love you so much that I hurt you, that I'm so confused
Coming close to your cold cheek, my soul was born
I always want to see you right away

I love you so much I can't speak, so how will you see my kindness?
Hold me tighter, I believe in your warm heart
Farewell, solitaire, to tomorrow

Because I'm so small, I give everything, but it's not enough
This hand, which can't hide anything at all, I want to give to you
We still have to see off the white dawn

Why was I able to run across someone this important?
Holding on to these fingers that they almost hurt, I see the dream that had disappeared into sadness
Farewell, solitaire

Because I'm no longer alone, tomorrow awakens, and I'm with you

Because I have someone whom I love so much, I'm here by your side, protecting you
I'm so glad that I was born on this earth that connects me to you

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Problems

Trials. Exams.
Health.
Relationships.
Me.

Yay! I get down too easily sometimes.