Friendship

3 different friends.
3 different ways to get hurt.
I thought I could finally settle down and embrace the moment.
I took it for granted.
That's why I'm hurt again.

I need confirmation. I need security. I need truth and honesty. I need to reach out more and understand.
I want it all to be REAL.

Cold War

"Hurry
Hurry
You put my head in such a flurry
Flurry
Freckle freckle what makes you so special?
What makes you so special?
I'm gonna leave you
I'm gonna teach you
How we're all alone
How we're all alone"
~w.a.m.s. by Fall Out Boy

You shall not be the one who will affect my quality of life.
I'm not the one responsible for your anger.
I have my life to live.
I know why you're doing this.
But that doesn't give you the right to just treat me like that.
I'm sorry if you are hurt.
But guess what? I think you are on the winning side as well.
You got me a little affected when I thought I wouldn't be.

Gone.

It's so scary to lose control of even a part of your body.
It feels like you're going to lose ALL of it.
The same goes to life.
I think I'm already missing some pieces.

Smile, it doesnt cost you anything.

"If everyone cared and nobody cried"
~If Everyone Cared by Nickelback

The world would do a lot better with more smiles and hugs and sunshine.
What we need is care.
If only there is no "If".

On Results day ( 12-3-2009)

It was a totally bizarre day.

Early in the morning I was nervous. Couldn't stand or sit still.

By noon I could swear that my heart almost stopped functioning.

I was overwhelmed and shocked and relieved and happy after that moment.

Filled with happiness when I saw my friends.... almost in tears
Went on a spontanneous trip to midvalley with Ju Vern, Gowrie, Sheau Wei, Jun-Wen, Jason, Lung Wang and Chuen Hoe.
Lunch and photo session with the gang! Really enjoyed it.
We separated into the Movie gang and the Lepak gang. Chee Kong, Wai Zack, Yoong Chieh and Chee Soon joined later on.
Lepak gang, which consisted of Jun-wen, Gowrie, Sheau Wei and me walked around.... then Sheau Wei left early. Rest of us went to Starbucks!YAY! To the joy of Gowrie and me.

After Jun-Wen left, Gowrie and I stumbled upon a very RUDE guy.
Rude guy came from the opposite direction with his friends.... then started POINTING at Gowrie and I and said " Yang ini untuk kamu, yang baju merah ini untuk aku"
STUPID CRAPPY GUY!! We only appeared in front of him like for that 2 seconds and this is what he can think of. Should have just slapped him there and then.

Later at night... I was touched.
Syn Dee made me feel very appreciated. I couldn't have asked for more.
I received an unexpected call from Indonesia. Sai Ho called just to ask how was the results. That was nice of him.=)

I couldnt sleep that night. A very memorable day. Partly because of the coffee too. ;p

What I did. :P

Back in Form 4 and Form 5 where Ju Vern and I would sit beside each other...
Both of us had a common hobby ( habit) of eavesdropping into other people's conversations while doing our homework.
3 8 people we are... lols
(Yes, 5Sc1 people I'm very sorry, but you all know how boring it is in class sometimes and some of you just talk LOUD)
We would be smiling ( laughing hysterically inside) to some of the conversations we hear.
Its real entertaining.
Especially Chee Kong's conversations with any of his friends. ( Well, not only particularly Chee Kong, there are others I can't remember for now)
How I missed those times.

Otaku- Jia Wei

CK:我看你差不多要变宅女了！一个月才出一次！

是的。我是个宅女啊！！！整天呆在家的，又很少出街的。。
不过，其实我很喜欢出街的，我很想念买衣服买鞋的兴奋，也很想念跟朋友谈天看戏。。。
可惜，每次想跟朋友出街时，全都不得空！不然就是朋友约我，我不方便！！
气死人啦！！
但是，我又必须努力读书。。
哎，到最后。。我还是宅女一个。

Moral presentation-over!

Yes. Moral presentation finally over. WOOHOO!
I was suprisingly not that nervous when I did the intro for our presentation...
Wheter it was good or not.. I'm not really sure... lols.
Nanthini said that I still shook a little.
Anyhows... everything went well... until Ms Syikin decided to stop us.
Everything was like abrupt end. She didn't stop the other groups! UNFAIRNESS.
The Q&A session...... was haha... so fake. and maybe lame at the same time. Imagine us responding like that in normal classes when teacher asks a question.... lol.

Well anyways... here are some pics.Our break between bio and maths class.
Stephanie and Lai Yee ( Cappy)

Vivian and me.Kiir and me.Preparing....Me doing the presentation.

And lastly, my favourite pic of the day:

Group photo with my friends!( group members)
From left: Nanthini, Kiir, Vivian, Victoria, Candy, Rosalind, me and Neena.
A bunch of great people they are.Thank you for the hard work everyone! =D

Amazed.

Today I amazed myself twice.
Firstly, I was amazed by how bad my memory was.
I keep losing track on my homework. It's always missing.

Neena: Ei Jia Wei lend me your bio report please.
JW: Wait arr... I look through my file.
JW: ITS GONE!!! NOOO Where is it? Rosalind you take already ah?
Ros: No, yesterday i returned to you already lah. I think Kiir has it.
JW rushed to Kiir : KIIR!! You taking my bio report???
Kiir: No, I handed it back to you yesterday.... and you said "Oh" and kept it in your file.
JW: ITS GONE!!! HOW!?? ( almost in tears and waved hands frantically )
Kiir: Its in your moral file lah.... yesterday I saw you keep in there.
JW rumaged through moral file.... and found it.
This whole conversation was repeated... around like 1 hour later... with the same bio report. What's just wrong with me lah?

Secondly, I used a chinese proverb unconciously today.
It flew out of my mouth just like that... and it isnt one that I always use.
JW:我的功课都不翼而飞！！！( My homework flew away without wings!)
Right after that I was like.... WOW....
I still remember my Chinese stuff. Amazing.

My voice is dull. Only knew today.

They say your voice don't exactly sound like what you hear it as.
I really agree with that.

Today for our moral studies class we had group presentation.
So there was this group of girls talking about war.
Then when a particular girl was presenting, well actually reading straight from the powerpoint, all my friends suddenly turned to my direction.

JW: " What?"
Friends:" She sounds familiar. She sounds like you lah."

That instant I was like blowed out of my mind. I never knew my voice sounded so ... DULL.
So I really paid attention to the girl's voice ( my voice), and the more I heard it, the more bizzare I felt. Inside I'm like :" Serious? This is my voice!? My voice not like this one larrr!!!!"

So people... now I know how horrible my voice sounds. Don't need to hestitate to criticise my voice. I totally understand if you did. =(