I guess it's kind of hard to get blessings from everyone you know.
I mean the type of blessings which is true from the heart.
Some people just put smiles on their faces.
And that's it.

I'm starting to wonder should I even care
or should I just pretend that I don't know

but you can't live alone forever

One thing about studying..
It robs you of your senses. well of course there's our sight but whatever.
My mum has been pulling me to her garden and she asks
"How long have you not have any fresh air and have you ever take notice of my flowers?"
I notice that she's right.

So i took a breather yesterday evening.
It was windy and for the 1st time ( ok i know i suck ) i hear the sound of the bamboo leaves hitting against each other.
it was the sound of waves hitting on a shore and it was so beautiful.
And i wondered how did I not notice this before.
And I thought "I'm back and alive again"