I'm in a no-mood-to-study-mode and thats really bad.
I'm just really angry at myself right now.
It even angers myself when I'm making him the victim of my stupid mood swings.
argh hate myself so much sometimes.
It feels like I'm just throwing my parents trust and confidence in me into the drain.
and right now.. I think I've just thrown mine away.
Phang Jia Wei you're a total idiot.And there's no turning back now =(
Thursday, December 24, 2009
Sunday, November 22, 2009
A Mother's Touch
I was having a really bad stomach discomfort last night.
I went to bed last night hoping that the pain and discomfort will fade, then mum came.
"Come let me rub your back, it'll make you feel better"
Oh gosh, it really was comfortable and it reminded me of how she would always rub my back when I was little... where I was even more susceptible to flus and colds and fevers and whatever diseases available. Hmm. It's been such a long time since she ever rubbed my back... and I think I almost could have cried last night.
In a few minutes I was feeling alright already and my eyes were drooping. Then she tucked me to sleep. Feels like I was that 5 year old little girl again.
It's amazing how just a simple rub can cure a day's of misery. ( oh lets say i was suffering more than just a stomach ache yesterday)
I think it must be something in a mother's Touch.
A touch that no other can have.
A touch full of love and healing properties.
I love you Mummy... for all that you have done all these years.. wheter I was sick or when I wasn't .. you were always there with your gentle touch.
And I'll make sure that I'll get better soon... I'll work hard.. so one day.. in return... I can be your gentle touch when you need it the most.
I went to bed last night hoping that the pain and discomfort will fade, then mum came.
"Come let me rub your back, it'll make you feel better"
Oh gosh, it really was comfortable and it reminded me of how she would always rub my back when I was little... where I was even more susceptible to flus and colds and fevers and whatever diseases available. Hmm. It's been such a long time since she ever rubbed my back... and I think I almost could have cried last night.
In a few minutes I was feeling alright already and my eyes were drooping. Then she tucked me to sleep. Feels like I was that 5 year old little girl again.
It's amazing how just a simple rub can cure a day's of misery. ( oh lets say i was suffering more than just a stomach ache yesterday)
I think it must be something in a mother's Touch.
A touch that no other can have.
A touch full of love and healing properties.
I love you Mummy... for all that you have done all these years.. wheter I was sick or when I wasn't .. you were always there with your gentle touch.
And I'll make sure that I'll get better soon... I'll work hard.. so one day.. in return... I can be your gentle touch when you need it the most.
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Feeling
I've been thinking a lot.
Wheter if its all true. Wheter what I'm doing is right. Or it was just my imagination.
But you told me to be confident and I'm the one.
And I suddenly remembered someone told me.
because if we start to think too much.. you'll give yourself excuses and reasons.
yes and I think you gave me that feeling of love.
And i think ... its all that matters =)
I'll keep hanging on to it.
Because... I'm quite sure... you feel the same way too.
Wheter if its all true. Wheter what I'm doing is right. Or it was just my imagination.
But you told me to be confident and I'm the one.
And I suddenly remembered someone told me.
"没有思维下地清楚明白就是feeling"
because if we start to think too much.. you'll give yourself excuses and reasons.
yes and I think you gave me that feeling of love.
And i think ... its all that matters =)
I'll keep hanging on to it.
Because... I'm quite sure... you feel the same way too.
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