Theatre Of My Life

2011-05-16T01:01:00.002+08:00

Someone asked me why dont I strive for the best when i have the qualification.

Why do all this when I do not have any reasons for doing it?

I don't need to tell the whole world where I stand.

As long I know

Isn't that enough?

We fight so hard but in the end

Do we know why are we fighting so hard for?

In the midst

We've forgotten.

I've forgotten.

2011-05-16T00:52:00.002+08:00

I miss the 90's rock songs

Matchbox 20
Goo Goo Dolls
Fuel
Vertical Horizon
Linkin Park
Aerosmith
Creed
Lifehouse
Coldplay
Nine Days

as well as Fall Out Boy.

duracell bunny

2011-03-12T21:12:00.003+08:00

Remember this pink fella?

Lol I saw it in tv the other day.

Reminded me of the advertisement last time where the bunny would run non-stop and he won the race.

I wish I could just be like it and just not run out of battery.

Lol I'm damn random for posting this suddenly out of a long hiatus

But I'm just bored.

2011-02-19T17:19:00.002+08:00

Feel

bad

angry

disorientated

frustrated

disappointed

you know,

girls

are sensitive

for me not

all the time
but

sometimes.

and this is the time

I would want you

to tam me.

instead of the other way round.

You know what

I hate me and my raging hormones

Post #100

2010-09-09T21:45:00.002+08:00

Haven't blogged a while. Not really inspired lately.
But! I shall blog today for the sake of killing boredom.
Everything is gonna be random and unorganised here whatever that comes to mind i will just type.

4/9/10
Went for orientation at melaka. I freaked out after the dean's speech ("You cannot escape from memorising! Its the basic like abc and your multiplication table. You dont memorise you cant continue in further advanced level.. Mind maps are useless!" and a lot more you-don't-work-hard-you-will-die talk. Boo.) and after having an outlook of our timetable ( Mondays to Saturdays 8am to 5pm in between only 2 hour lunch break). It feels like I will be crying day and night there due to the stress and homesickness and whatnot. Hostel arrangements totally sucked. We weren't given any briefing about the hostels and after the orientation they announced " Ok get to the counter outside the hall to book your hostel rooms." Everyone were like a herd of lost sheep and we start pushing and asking while staring at the list of hostels and price. Yeesh. Anyway i got a twin sharing and my future room mate is from Penang. She seems pretty nice hope we can get along well.

Random fact no. 1 : I havent finish packing.
Random fact no 2 : I baked a chocolate cake that looks horrible but tastes not bad
Random fact no 3: Finished a book Before I Fall. Not bad.
Random fact no 4: I don't think I'm ready for dentistry. I've forgotten everything I learned in A levels.
Random fact no 5 : I'm gonna miss everything back in kl.

***

I've been told we should learn how to accept.
When we face a problem normally we go through this 5 stages.
1. We go like.. "Why!!?? Why?? How could this happen to me??"
2. Then we start denying the problem.
3. The problem haunts you day and night and you get so soo depressed and miserable over it.
4. This is only when we start to accept that we have to live with it.
5. And finally doing something about it.

It seems that there are very few that can jump straight to no 4 and 5.
People with extremely high EQ i guess.
Something I really need to develop.

***

Anger is something very scary. It makes you go violent. It makes you want to hurt yourself. It makes you want to stab yourself. It makes you hurt others. In the end it makes you cry.

2010-07-19T22:51:00.002+08:00

I guess it's kind of hard to get blessings from everyone you know.
I mean the type of blessings which is true from the heart.
Some people just put smiles on their faces.
And that's it.

I'm starting to wonder should I even care
or should I just pretend that I don't know

but you can't live alone forever

2010-07-14T21:33:00.002+08:00

One thing about studying..
It robs you of your senses. well of course there's our sight but whatever.
My mum has been pulling me to her garden and she asks
"How long have you not have any fresh air and have you ever take notice of my flowers?"
I notice that she's right.

So i took a breather yesterday evening.
It was windy and for the 1st time ( ok i know i suck ) i hear the sound of the bamboo leaves hitting against each other.
it was the sound of waves hitting on a shore and it was so beautiful.
And i wondered how did I not notice this before.
And I thought "I'm back and alive again"

2010-06-28T22:16:00.002+08:00

Officially end of A-levels today!! Yay!

These 18 months in ucsi has been a roller coaster ride.

To my friends, you all know who you are, I thank you all for the precious moments.

All the nicknames you give me ranging from phang phang, rambutan, miaow wei, chipmunk/chippette (is this the correct spelling?)...

our daily brunch together during class breaks including the long and torturing process of deciding where to eat everyday...

all of your laughter and stupid cold jokes and vanity...

will be something I miss after we part our ways.

and of course candy's birth date will be something that i will not forget hehe. 13th of october right? =p just kidding la

wishing all the best to you all my friends lets keep in touch =) and in the meantime before we start our degree... happy holidays and have fun! take care =)

2010-05-10T20:59:00.002+08:00

Why don't you ever talk to your brother when he comes back?

It has always been like that.

Only after I was asked, I realised that the tension was still there. I don't seem to know and seem to care. It's not the age gap, and its not the gender issues that doesn't restrict siblings.
I am still keeping my distance from him. I learned from past experiences that, to avoid conflict, just remain silent and minimise contact. And I am still holding on to that principle, in this case.

Yes, I know its all in the past it should be long forgotten and forgiven and I know I can't blame him for his past mistakes. But you can't blame me for hating it. You can't just pretend it didn't happen.. that easily.

You might think a sorry would fix everything. It was easy for him, I have to say. He didn't have to deal with the aftermath of his tantrums. He didn't have to feel scared every night worrying about the yelling and fights. He wasn't the one who heard our parents sigh. He wasn't the one who have to face our parent's red eyes. He wasn't the one who received the blow in the eyes. He had no idea the damage he caused.

Ok try to imagine this scenario
Let's say a chunk of meat is removed from your arm. An extremely big wound, painful and bleeding like hell. And so you let it heal by itself, slowly and eventually but painfully the bleeding will stop and the wound dries up. But the wound never covers back and the ugly old scar will be there with you for life. And occasionally, it bleeds again when there is a gentle bump.

That is how I describe my situation. I've persuade myself to forgive him, and which I did as there weren't always the bad times. But there is where I left everything to be. From that onwards I didn't make any extra effort to improve my understanding and caring for him. I wasn't the one to initiate the conversation. He was just like a regular 6 year older than me senior who I met occasionally and has access to home. I don't think we even had any heart to heart brother to sister conversation. At all. Nothing more and less.

It is quite saddening when I am thinking of all this. Because we'll be going our separate ways- he's getting married soon which I am really happy for him, he's going to have a family of his own and I'll be studying in which maybe the next 5 years our contact will be further deprived of. I can kind of imagine in the next further years... we would be like total strangers. Maybe just a hi and bye between us but things may go for the better I dunno.

I know no matter what, he's of the same surname as me we share some common genes and he's my brother. He is a member of the family and I should love him as a sister which I do, and I'm hoping that things between us will change, someday.

2010-05-09T16:51:00.002+08:00

Gee it's great after being out late,
Walking my baby back home.
Arm and arm over meadow and farm,
Walking my baby back home.

We go along harmonizing a song,
Or I'm reciting a poem.
Owls go by and they give me the eye,
Walking my baby back home.

We stop for a while, she gives me a smile,
And snuggles her head on my chest.
We started to pet, and that's when I get
Her talcum all over my vest.

After I kind of straighten my tie,
She has to borrow my comb.
One kiss then I continue again,
Walking my baby back home.

She's afraid of the dark
So I had to park outside of her door till its light
She's says if I try to kiss her she'll cry
Ill dry her tears all through the night

Hand in Hand to a barbeque stand
Right from her doorway we roam
Eats and then its a pleasure again
Walking my baby, Talking my baby
Loving my baby, I don't mean maybe
Walking my baby back home

~Walking My Baby Back Home Nat King Cole

Don't you think that this is the cutest song ever?
The thing about songs now is that
They will never have lyrics like this
And although this song is an oldie
I'll have to say its really really beautiful.

To those who are so tired of Pitbull, Lady Gaga, Sean Kingston and etc
Tune in to Swing Time Lite Fm Sunday, 9 to 12 pm
Beautiful songs =)

2010-05-03T22:07:00.002+08:00

If you can finish this highlighter within one month I will give you one for free.

Really? You said it!

And I foolishly finished the highlighter in 1 month

Hoping for not only the highlighter but a little more surprises.

I did get the highlighter. But I knew the latter was impossible.

So I gave up.

On the person I hated so much at first but managed to make me think twice about that.

Lol. Just suddenly thought of this today and it kind of occured to me that maybe I'm still that same girl who didn't have any confident in herself then.

2010-04-21T22:17:00.002+08:00

Possible questions that I will be asked tomorrow:

1. Why dentistry?
Because I don't like the other science related courses... besides these 32 teeth are really a good source of income. Face the truth everyone works for money. Its just that this one pays better. Just be grateful I'm paying you and you are adding another dentist in the society. You happy I happy =D

2.Many other jobs can earn lots of money too... why dentistry?
you mean politicians? police? coffee money?

3. Describe yourself.
My name is Phang Jia Wei. I am a girl. I am 19 this year. I am 163 cm tall. My weight... can we skip that?

4.Why do you deserve a place here?
Because everyone deserves a chance =) And its about you deserving me =p I know you're desperate to fill up those empty spaces.. lol

Lol I wonder what will their response be if I answered like that xD Just joking anyway.
Hope everything will be fine tomorrow =)

2010-04-17T12:15:00.002+08:00

After 4 months of attending her class... I've decided I should dedicate this post to my bio lecturer for this semester.
Is she that great?
Yes in a kind of way she is.

For instance she is very hardworking.
She tries so so so hard to find bio notes from the internet, copy paste them into words, print them out on a paper, then copy it on the whiteboard exact word by word. Like, which lecturer would ever do that? Google is just a click away for us students anyway isn't it?

Oh yes she has a very interesting religion. In her religion, the marking scheme is her God. All doubts in this world would be answered by the marking scheme if you worship it hard enough. Every word in the marking scheme should be followed exactly or catastrophe shall fall on thou.

Its really amazing how powerful her lectures are even our brains cant take it. 10 minutes is enough for her to make all our brain functions slow down and eventually stop.

Well, her sense of humour and her enthusiasm in teaching is quite unique. She takes her students opinions into quite some consideration.

"Miss what is the other risk involved?"
"Hmm Im not really sure about that its not written in here. I'll find out for you tomorrow. Hmm What do you think is the risk involved then?"
"If I knew I wouldn't have ask?"

oh well maybe thats her way in making jokes.

She really is very considerative. She calls the class off 15 minutes before the exact time for our brains are already "saturated and exploding" Sometimes even 30 minutes. Yes our brain needs lots of rest mine has been in rusting mode due to excess rest, unfortunately.

Is she popular among students?

Oh yes. I heard there are students who beg for her interesting story telling time. And I heard there are the jpa students who just adore her and can't bear to see her leave. And not to forget her wide social network. She has got this one friend and a few more who really has a dramatic life.

I wonder if anyone has ever told her how experienced and how great she is in teaching. 8 years of teaching in ucsi like that is great isn't it?

seriously someday someone has to give her a wakeup call.
We're paying her. although for my case the school is. What a good investment for bio education.

You know what would ultimately make up my day?
Seeing someone stand up to her and say

"Its pronounced as DEE-fuse not DAI-fuse!" *diffuse*

xD lols

2010-04-03T22:25:00.002+08:00

Its all about choices and consequences.
But its not always as easy as choosing the most beautifully paved in a forked path.

If any of my readers are still reading..
this is the reason behind my emoness
confused with all the choices

but yes people i decided.

dentistry in manipal. 2 years in india. this september. with him.

and i wont regret

2010-03-09T18:22:00.002+08:00

Suddenly I notice that its the small gestures that shows the most.

That morning I saw my dad waving me goodbye from his bedroom window as I walked out of the gate.

Normally he would still have been sleeping.

I didnt know why but that just suddenly made me feel very safe like he's watching over me at all times.. making sure I'm ok =)

Ever since I've been looking up at his window every morning before I leave for college.

And just that motivates me to go through everyday.

2010-03-07T14:58:00.002+08:00

I want my results

ASAP

Suspense

Please stop torturing me

Edexcel board

When is the doomsday?

I dont care. Just give me my A's

2010-03-01T15:42:00.002+08:00

I've realised I've developed this tendency of thinking too much.

Like who the hell analyses

" Oh ok lo... its nothing... "

into

" I hate you I'm tired of you"

except me.

I hate what's becoming of me.

Oh shoosh this blog is now officially my emo spamming space.

Hopefully that will change. Soon.

I need a little more hugs and smiles and LOADS of confidence.

2010-01-28T14:01:00.002+08:00

Exams are over! Yay!

Its so evil that the papers this time were hard. =(
So different from past years.

the new syllabus is so evil too. There's no time for you to stop and think at all.
Just enough time for look and write but the questions are just so brain damaging how on earth are we going to finish?

anyways... cny is coming.. i need to go shopping!

Who want join me?

recruiting a cny shopping team now =)
and yes I gotta meet up with gowrie and max and everyone else too =)

2010-01-25T22:49:00.002+08:00

YOU
stop polluting my blog
stop posting stupid comments
stop messing with my friend
give a little respect to my friends and yours as well
don't destroy anymore of that tiny speck of good impression that I have left in you
don't make me feel disgusted with you
don't make me swear to you
don't know how nasty I can be when I want to

So don't push it.

and yes I really want to say that day,

Its none of YOUR business

2010-01-24T15:32:00.002+08:00

My tear glands are extra active lately.
Its burning my eyes.

But its ok.

I've been asked a question that day
"You love chua siong hui?"

definitely. It's worth every while.

2010-01-10T16:41:00.002+08:00

Shoot. 1st exam day tomorrow.
C1 C2 and chemistry unit 3

Better be easy.

Because I've been in play mode and I still am. =P

I think I need all the luck in the world tomorrow.
To all my friends, good luck too!

Happy New Year !

2010-01-01T12:14:00.002+08:00

Happy New Year Everyone! Wishing everyone all the best in 2010 and the years to come =)

Don't really have any new year resolutions...Just wish that all goes well =)

Exam in 10 days =( I really need some luck. Anyways just going to give my best.

2009-12-24T16:02:00.002+08:00

I'm in a no-mood-to-study-mode and thats really bad.
I'm just really angry at myself right now.
It even angers myself when I'm making him the victim of my stupid mood swings.

argh hate myself so much sometimes.

It feels like I'm just throwing my parents trust and confidence in me into the drain.
and right now.. I think I've just thrown mine away.

Phang Jia Wei you're a total idiot.And there's no turning back now =(

A Mother's Touch

2009-11-22T20:47:00.003+08:00

I was having a really bad stomach discomfort last night.
I went to bed last night hoping that the pain and discomfort will fade, then mum came.

"Come let me rub your back, it'll make you feel better"

Oh gosh, it really was comfortable and it reminded me of how she would always rub my back when I was little... where I was even more susceptible to flus and colds and fevers and whatever diseases available. Hmm. It's been such a long time since she ever rubbed my back... and I think I almost could have cried last night.

In a few minutes I was feeling alright already and my eyes were drooping. Then she tucked me to sleep. Feels like I was that 5 year old little girl again.

It's amazing how just a simple rub can cure a day's of misery. ( oh lets say i was suffering more than just a stomach ache yesterday)
I think it must be something in a mother's Touch.
A touch that no other can have.
A touch full of love and healing properties.

I love you Mummy... for all that you have done all these years.. wheter I was sick or when I wasn't .. you were always there with your gentle touch.

And I'll make sure that I'll get better soon... I'll work hard.. so one day.. in return... I can be your gentle touch when you need it the most.

Feeling

2009-11-19T21:49:00.002+08:00

I've been thinking a lot.
Wheter if its all true. Wheter what I'm doing is right. Or it was just my imagination.
But you told me to be confident and I'm the one.
And I suddenly remembered someone told me.

"没有思维下地清楚明白就是feeling"

because if we start to think too much.. you'll give yourself excuses and reasons.
yes and I think you gave me that feeling of love.
And i think ... its all that matters =)
I'll keep hanging on to it.
Because... I'm quite sure... you feel the same way too.

After Trials

2009-11-19T20:31:00.002+08:00

Yesterday went out with my bunch of a levels friends to midvalley for 2012 and to celebrate Vicky's birthday. Oh she's the youngest in our class. Its amazing that our gang of 7 people already makes up half the class... haha. Don't ask me why but our population is decreasing tremendously.

Went to Sushi Zanmai for lunch... I think we took half an hour to order our food? because we spent most of our time chatting and photoshooting instead of deciding what to eat 1st. xD Bunch of crazy girls. haha. Oh!! I never ever realised the wonders of cold sake before this it was FANTASTIC. I guess it was the same for Candy too as she went high and almost drunk after a few sips.Lol.

" Candy are you alright ah?"
*Hugs pillar*
" Yea I'm ok...." *Spaces out and looks at me*
"Jia Wei how come you're suddenly so tall one?"

Lol xD

Went to cosmic bowl after that for a few games.. Then 2012!
Well if you ask me to rate the show out of 10 I would say 5. My personal opinion, the show isn't that GREAT as what it seems, its concentrating too much on cold blooded ugly politicians, a scientist in dilemma, a family who just is too lucky to be true (ok, fine there are miracles in the world but... the land just crumbles away nicely only right after them EVERYTIME) and all the surviving people. And hey I'm surprised they didn't even convey any message about conserving and saving the earth? And I think it would have more impact on me if they were concentrating on the helpless dying to be people facing those earth quakes and tsunami and all. Maybe I'm just depressing but I'm just being realistic. Oh but one thing, the CG is realllly good. But its overall an okay movie, if you have 2 and a half hours and 11 ringgit extra to spend ya go for it.

After movie we rushed back to ucsi then went our separate ways... met up with dear in pasar malam and spent my whole evening with him. =) Really happy and appreciated that he came down to pasar malam just because I asked him to and being able to spend time with him out of the library is just great =). Usually we'll just be in the library and I know that's so depressing for him. I hope he had fun and enjoyed himself last night... because all I can give him is just this much. Anyways thanks dear * muaks*

and my whole day was gone just like that. I haven't go out in such a long time haha. Tiring but fun. Im lazy to upload the photos just go to facebook and it'll be there.

Sayonara Sollitaire

2009-11-12T14:10:00.002+08:00

Daisuki to omou kara ne kizutsu ittari tomadottari
Tsumetai hoho wo yose atte kokoro ga umareta
Itsumo ima sugu ni aitai

Mukuchi ni naruhodo suki yo yasashi sa doushitara mieru no
Dakishimete motto tsuyoku atataka na mune wo shinjiru yo
Sayonara solitia ashita he

Chiisana watashi dakara zenbu demo tarinai yone
Nanni mo kakusanai de anata ni agetai
Mada shiroi yoake wo miokutte

Konnani daiji na hito ni doushite meguri aetano to
Itai hodo tsunagu yubi de sabishi sa kienu yume wo miru no
Sayonara solitia

Mou hitori jyanai kara ashita mezameru no anata to

Daisuki na hito dakara ne sobani iru mamotteru
Anata he tsunagaru daichi ni umerete yokatta

It's because I love you so much that I hurt you, that I'm so confused
Coming close to your cold cheek, my soul was born
I always want to see you right away

I love you so much I can't speak, so how will you see my kindness?
Hold me tighter, I believe in your warm heart
Farewell, solitaire, to tomorrow

Because I'm so small, I give everything, but it's not enough
This hand, which can't hide anything at all, I want to give to you
We still have to see off the white dawn

Why was I able to run across someone this important?
Holding on to these fingers that they almost hurt, I see the dream that had disappeared into sadness
Farewell, solitaire

Because I'm no longer alone, tomorrow awakens, and I'm with you

Because I have someone whom I love so much, I'm here by your side, protecting you
I'm so glad that I was born on this earth that connects me to you

Problems

2009-11-10T17:27:00.003+08:00

Trials. Exams.
Health.
Relationships.
Me.

Yay! I get down too easily sometimes.

Confession

2009-10-24T13:18:00.002+08:00

Last night we met our 1st bump in our way.

It was actually quite a small one, such that it shouldn't matter at all.

I already knew it would be a bumpy and rocky pathway. Far more lies ahead us.

But I was a little hurt.

I was afraid. I loss my confidence in myself.

Will I be able to overcome the next one coming?

This is where I need you. I'm not as strong as I thought I was.

Please, hold my hand tighter.

At least next time when the next bump comes, I'll be more prepared.

We'll have each other to lead the way and to prevent the fall. =)

It's because I trust you.

It's because all that you've shown me.

It's all because. I love you Chua Siong Hui. =)

Breakthrough

2009-10-18T14:04:00.003+08:00

I know this is so not me.
I have to admit.... I've changed a lot... I'm not the Jia Wei I used to be.
This is so new to me.... but I'm learning a lot from this and I'm widening my horizons.

It's because of him. My dear.

Yup people... I have a boyfriend now.

I'm amazed myself.

To Ju Vern and gang... I'll explain more in detail the next time we meet =)

Mentos Chews.

2009-10-08T18:11:00.002+08:00

Victoria : Mentos are health pills ok? It contains sucrose... glucose.... all the nutrients that you need.

I really like her comment on her overdosage of Mentos chews.
She finished one whole stick of the Mentos in just an hour.

Someone please tell her its not. lol.
Oh yea. Its explosive with cola.

2009-10-04T13:52:00.003+08:00

I'm confused again.
Gah.
Hate myself for doing all this stupid stuff to myself.

2009-09-27T11:30:00.002+08:00

It's all a game of this or that, now versus then
better off against worse for wear

You are the dreamer and we are the dream.
I could write it better than you ever felt it.

So hum hallelujah,
Just off the key of reason
I thought I loved you
It was just how you looked in the light.
A teenage vow in a parking lot
"Till tonight do us part"
I sing the blues and swallow them too

~ Hum Hallelujah by Fall Out Boy

Desperate for attention.

Maybe that's what I am.

Maybe that's why I made such a huge and hasty decision.

ARGGGGH

Someone educate and enlighten me. Please.

Rahsia Perempuan

2009-09-13T12:35:00.002+08:00

The lyrics sounds so wrong at first right?
Guess what its the mind that is wrong.
I bet 9 out of 10 people will be thinking in "that" direction.
I did too. lol.
Nevertheless its a good song in terms of the melody and its (misleading) lyrics. haha.
Guys. Take note of what this song is trying to say. =D

| Read | Read | Read | Read | Read |

2009-09-09T16:44:00.005+08:00

" Love is like Heaven

But it hurts like Hell"

So true.

Saw this on a table today. The person who wrote this must be having a bad time.
Well but love is good in a sense that it gives you the taste of both Hell and Heaven.
Makes you try harder to reach the land of angels.
Which reminds me of another line I saw on a T-shirt

"There is no remedy to love
But to Love more"

"Heaven" is around you if you are willing to try.

"Don't feel bad for the suicidal cats
Gotta kill themselves 9 times before they can get it right"
"West Coast Smokers" by Fall Out Boy

Another interesting line that I like.
They'll learn how to treasure their lives even more.

"Behind every strong man is a woman"

One very famous phrase that got me thinking:
Men are strong for having women looking after their backs.
Then who will be looking after women backs when the men is in front of them?
So girls, don't depend too much on guys. Lol. It's still up to ourselves sometimes.

People who understands my title would see what this whole post is about.
This is my way of seeing the lines I addressed.
Just a thought. Don't have to take me seriously people!

Cinnamoroll!

2009-09-02T17:51:00.003+08:00

I have a sudden liking to Cinnamoroll.(and Friends) >.<
They're so cute and adorable!!

Now, what you are going to see is the ultimate CUTE factor.
Just a warning towards those who can't stand cuteness.
This is trailer for the movie.

Not cute enough for you?
THIS is the higher dosage.

well, that was a bit TOO cute for me.

Can you believe that I'm going to be 18 soon?
Me can't either.
Lol. =D

Patriotism

2009-08-26T17:26:00.002+08:00

It's always this patriotic month of the year that we would have

The election of a committee
The brainstorming session which most of the people don't really care.
The unfinished lines and plot and the overdue script.
The 20 minutes travel from the class to the dewan.
Last minute rehearsals with unchoreographed moves.
Actors/ Actresses that are scattered everywhere in all directions but not on the stage.
Inattentive people with their heads burried in books and homeworks.
Props that are forever missing or was never there.
A tired radio playing the same old tracks repeatedly.
Actors/Actresses that wasn't paying attention and was slow by half a beat.
The despair, anger and stress of the director.
Meetings and discussions through msn or after school.
Unfinished touch ups that seem to increase by the second.

and yet
we'll miraculously manage to

Grab full attention of the whole dewan throughout the performance.
Pick up some humour and spontanuity from our leading actors and actresses.
Hear the laughter of the audience.
Actually get the whole performance done.
Earn quite a number of compliments and praises.
Have fun despite the misery of the rehearsals.

Don't know about the others but through all this I've developed this patriotism and attachment towards our class ever since our first debut, "Leftenan Adnan".
Yea, sure there is all the last minute preparations and attitude problems, but hey
It's OUR thing and I think it would be totally different without it.It makes us, US.

I was, still am , will still be a part of all this,and
I miss all of this and all of you so much.

Free I-Phone? Worth a Try. XD

2009-08-16T16:21:00.003+08:00

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hehe.
Thank you! Especially to Jason for posting this.I'd put you for the referrer's email liao. =D

2009-08-13T17:51:00.003+08:00

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This is soooooooooo random and funny.
I received this from my Chemistry Lecturer.
He's like 50+ but i never expected him to be active in Desktop Dating.
LOL
Sorry Sir, I'm just not that into you.

2009-08-11T17:41:00.003+08:00

It makes me wonder how a certain Mr X can ever afford to lose his job when
-He has a family of 5 to feed
-He has a son in coma after a suicide attempt and all the medical fees to attend to.

-Being so unfocused and blur at his job
-Being so untruthful
-Being so irresponsible
-"Falling In Love" with his boss's housemaid.
-Harassing his boss's housemaid!

And he just had to make 2 horrendous scratches on his boss's Merc after he got fired.
But I guess the damage he made on the Merc will never be as severe as the one he inflict upon his family and his own reputation.
What a foolish, twisted and revengeful soul.
I used to give him the benefit of doubt, but it seems that he doesn't deserve it anyway.

I am so sorry for his wife and kids. And I hope that one day he will come back to his senses and take a good look at how much his family is depending on him.

And yet, perhaps, I've never been in his shoes before so I wouldn't know.

Far Away.

2009-08-04T21:15:00.003+08:00

I've always loved the song Far Away from Nickelback.

I'm loving it even more now.

Because it reminded me of not only mine but your courage too.

It was fate and chance.

And I thank you for still being there.

Sinking

2009-07-22T21:21:00.003+08:00

I really didn't expect this.

IDIOT!!!!

It's all your fault.

Stupid IDIOT!!!

I can't believe this is happening.

But I guess I'm the biggest fool here for falling into this.

Speaking of timing.

Maybe, I should give you a try.

Candy's Birthday

2009-07-17T17:14:00.010+08:00

This is a post requested by Candy. Yea. That's her.

I don't really know what to write cause Joseph and Jef done most of the job already but I'll try my best.

So 13th of July. I think our whole class could have remember this date for the rest of our lives- a certain person has been announcing to the whole world that its her birthday ever since day 1. Hoh, Candy?
Yea so we decided to have a huge celebration for her at Chilis, Midvalley, with the crew celebrating it with us as a suprise. They were very friendly, and helped a lot with the cake. Haha.
Rosalind and I excused ourselves and went to Secret Recipe to buy the cake.
We were like, " Ok. What cake does Candy like?"."Dunno leh, only knows she doesn't like mint and durian."
The supervisor at Secret Recipe was recommending so many cakes but we were so indecisive she was a bit impatient and annoyed with us , I think. =p. But we can't be blamed cause all the cakes we wanted weren't available. =(. We finally decided to have blueberry cheesecake.
But the suprise was a real success, cause Candy was about to cry when the cake came out and we had a blast after that. Here are photos.

On the way.....

While waiting...
The guys with Candy.

The gals with Candy.

The highlight of the day.......
Birthday Cake!No lah... just kidding. Highlight of the day.... the birthday girl, Candy.( with the birthday cake. lol)Group photo with the bday gal!

Me and my salad.After the meal...... Window shopping in The Gardens Hehe.... I'm posting a lot of Victoria cause this is the very rare chance of her appearing in front of the camera.
Love the group photo!

Well I guess thats all for now. I hope you enjoyed this post, Candy!
Before I end, this is a special tribute for you.

HAHAHA!!!Caught you on camera! Naughty girl conteng on people ahh....

Oklah, the real thing lah!
Hope you remain as happy and bubbly as you are forever!!
Sometimes you are literally a candy to me, you're very sweet and comforting. =)
We hearts you!!

First Day Of Work!

2009-07-07T20:46:00.006+08:00

I've got a part-time(compulsory) job in campus.It's my first day today.

This is where I work.This place is called the i-counter.
My job?
Give directions, take messages, pick up phone calls, stare at the lobby and the happening events.
Like this.What I did today?
Homework.

Only one dude asked for so called "information"
Dude: You working here?
*Nods*
Dude:Where is the management office?
*Points at the 2nd floor* "Up there"
My first and only customer today. Yay?

Its not a bad job actually.
At least I get time for homework and studying. lol
I'm doing this for the whole sem! Hope everything goes well. =)

PS: Special thanks to Candy, Cappy, Kiir and Chee Kong( Chin) for the 1 hour accompany.
I am really grateful =')

2009-07-02T17:15:00.003+08:00

Whatever you do
I'll be two steps behind you
Wherever you go
and I'll be there to remind you
that it only takes a minute of your precious time
to turn around and I'll be two steps behind.
~ Two Steps Behind by Def Leppard

My sincerity.

**
Head like a steel trap
Wish I didn't I didn't I didn't I didn't I didn't I didn't I didn't
I don't just want to be a footnote in someone else's happiness
~Headfirst Slide Into Cooperstown On a Bad Bet by Fall Out Boy

My honesty.
***
Am I thinking too much?

Thailand trip.

2009-07-01T17:13:00.007+08:00

My Thailand trip this time was real relaxing. I'm glad that I went. ^.^So long for the swine flu worries.
No one was wearing masks. Same goes to the Phang family here. lol.
For those who are wondering, I didn't quarantine myself and is back in college. Tee Hee.
So there IS the chance of UCSI being closed down. lol. Touch wood UCSI people!
Coming back to main topic,
Day 1

Slept through almost the whole day in the van and hotel. Went to a local pasar malam in Krabi after dinner. It was pretty cool. Here are some photos.

Sleep.

Jia Le and me

Jie Jie and Jia LeIn Pasar MalamCute leh....Look at the juices! Dim Sum like delicacyPineapple bomb!

Day 2

Speed boated around Phi Phi Islands and went snorkelling. I was right about the "first time snorkelling being more pretty than its actually worth", cause the dead corals really isnt THAT pretty anymore. The pretty thing that attracted me is the handsome guy on the same speed boat as us. lol. More photos.Dad and Mum

Three sisters! Jie Jie me and Jia LeMe beside the beach

Day 3
The best day of all the others. Had a guide that took us out of sea and explored a sea cave and went snorkelling. This Thai dude can speak Malay! He's really nice and caring =)
This conversation was really funny.
Dad: Hei perahu ada baju keselamatan tak?
Guide: Ada, tapi kalau tak ada pun tak apa, saya heret semua!
He really pulled us into and through the sea cave, cause we would never could have swam through the strong waves and high tide(he's really strong and this guy didn't need a life jacket!) . It was really scary but exciting at the same time! After the cave we saw an opening to a land, and we reached the middle of the island/cave it was so COOL. Once in a lifetime experience. It rained after that, so freezing cold.Only photo I have of day 3 is this cause it was all too wet for photos.

Day 4

Shopping in Hatyai before heading back to KL. Love this dress!Family photo.Window view from hotel roomReally like this!Illustrated movie ads along the streets which is quite cool.
Transformers and Harry Potter lol.

Yea... so basically thats how my 4 days 3 nights trip went. Feel free to ask me personally to know more. =D

Dilemma

2009-06-24T10:46:00.002+08:00

I'm in a dilemma now.
Because my family and I will be going to Thailand, Phi Phi Island and Krabi for a snorkelling trip on Friday.
That means exposing ourselves to a higher risk of getting H1N1.
Damn. Bad timing bad place.

Reasons For going
1. We're going to the seaside!!! I must enjoy nature before I die in sem 2, 3 units in total.
2. Snorkelling!! Last time I went it was beautiful.
3. It's the only time and chance I can enjoy a holiday trip with my family this year, before sem 2 starts.
4. Dad planned this since last year and he really wants a trip with us.

Reasons Against going ( Touch WOOD)
1. H1N1 on the run now.... I seriously cannot risk that. I'm still so young!!
2. Chances of quarantine is sky high..... as much as I like to go I can't miss my classes, which will be commencing on Monday.
3. I've been there before.
4. It was my first time snorkelling when I last went.... everything may be a little more pretty than what its actually worth.
5. Chances of Tsunami?
6.We have to be wearing masks all the time and sterilize everything and so, so that kills the relaxing mood of the trip.

6 against 4. But I'm not given a choice.
Help people!! T.T

2009-06-19T21:28:00.001+08:00

"Feeling" is the key to the fundamental truth.

because

There are so many things that a rational mind cannot explain and achieve.

Here, my journey begins.

Day out with Rosalind!

2009-06-17T20:26:00.003+08:00

Today I went to Times Square and Sungei Wang with Rosalind, my first ever UCSI friend that brought us all together =D
Too bad Cappy and Victoria weren't able to join us. =(
But we had fun anywyas.
Bought lots of clothes and shoes and bag!!
I think I suprised her a little with how much I bought today lol.

This is what we had for.... er hem... lunch.Lol.
Krispy Kreme! Hehe.

Thanks gal for making my day so fun and relaxing!! =)
Lets go again next hols !

My Cheesecake!

2009-06-14T20:18:00.003+08:00

This is the result of my( and Jia Le's too) chocolate cheesecake.
Yes what a horrible state.
The oreo cookie base was loose and it just crumbled everywhere.
Taste wise.... it was kinda weird.
Weird in a sense that the chocolate and cheese taste covered each other that you can't taste the chocolate or either the cheese.
So when I ate it it didn't feel like I'm eating chocolate cheesecake =(
But the texture was right. =)
Anyways.... will try harder next time!!
My next attempt: Brownies!!
XD!! Can't wait!!

Photos!

2009-06-12T14:42:00.012+08:00

I'll let the photos do most of the talking in this post.

3-6-2009

This was right after our last paper, chemistry. Went to Fun Ok with Candy, Cappy, Rosalind and Chee Kong for the very first time to have lunch.

Watermelon and carrot juice

What we did while waiting.

The girls gang bullied him!

Went to 1 utama with Kiir Rosalind and Jef the 2nd day (4-6-2009)
Cute prints on the wall.

Lunch in Sakae Sushi

While waiting for the bus.

I didn't get a photo of the ktm cause it was too crowded and scary.... but it was hell of an experience. Ask me to know more.

10-6-2009
Last day of my one week Buddha Class. Great experience. Great night we had lots of fun.Us bunch of the teenagers(quite a small bunch) having a photo with our shi fu.
We arranged this!Mummy Jie Jie and meThe guy who drew this is such an artistic genius. He is a left hander and he's a primary school deputy headmaster too! Lol.This happened at the end.

Yesterday, 2 new kitties joined our family!!
So now besides Sammy, the fella who owned my bio textbook here,

We have Suzie ( White) and Lily ( Brown)!!!
Edit: The white is now called Cream and the brown is now called Mocha.
(Suzie and Lily sounded horrible lol. =P)Yin Yang sisters.

They're so tiny and cute!!
They mew, then drink milk, then rub against each other, then sleep.
A repeating sequence.Soooooo CUTE!!

Today: Jia Le and I did baking!! Chocolate cheese cake!! Well she did most of the work and Ｉjust helped a little actually.Yeesh. My specs falling to the tip of nose like auntie.

YAY!

Look at how Jia Le is beaming =D
Random photo.Twins forever!!

Cheese cake has to be refridgerated for 1 whole day... so I haven't tasted it.
Should be ok.
Maybe I'll post it tomorrow. Stay tuned!

YAY!!

2009-06-04T22:28:00.002+08:00

Yay people my exams are FINALLY over!!!!!!!
WOOOHOOOO!!
Many things happened these days but I will post it later.
Won't be around from tomorrow to next wednesday.
I'll be in Selesa Hillhomes attending a Buddhist seminar thingy with my mum and sis.
So till then!!

Ps: to all my A levels class mates and friends: HAPPY HOLIDAYS and take care!!

Tagged.

2009-05-25T17:01:00.002+08:00

Sweat... I got tagged by Tze Huey. How random.
Anyways... something to kill the boredom of studying.
1. Besides your lips , where is the favourite spot to get kissed ?
Hmm... hands perhaps? I dunno. Never even got kissed in lips before.

2. How did you feel when you woke up this MORNING?
Same as always. Sleepy.

3. Who was the last person / people you took a photo WITH?
Just yesterday I took a photo with my dear two sisters.

4. Would you consider yourself SPOILED?
Sometimes. Yeah.

5. Will you ever donate BLOOD?
Yeah why not? I want to.

6. Have you ever had a best friend who was of the opposite SEX?
Not really. Good friends but not best.

7. Do you want someone to be DEAD?
No. Might change my mind if I'm in a bad mood though.

8. What does your last text message SAY?
Err... I deleted it so... my vague memory about it was

Lol. No I havent. Wait until my family come back then eat lunch together.

Or some sort.

9. What are you thinking right NOW?
Haha. I want to finish the exams NOW.

1o. Do you want someone to be with you right NOW?
Nope.

11. What was the time you went to bed last night ?
12.02 am. Not really a night any more.

12. Where did you buy the tee you are wearing now ?
I didn't buy it. It was given to me from my aunt.

13. Is someone on your mind right NOW?
No. The only thing in my mind right now is stated in no 9 already.

14. Who was the last person who text YOU?
Victoria.

TEN Lucky Person to do this quiz!
I think I won't tag anyone. I'm just doing this for fun. Or for those who want to do it please go ahead.

1.Gowrie
2. Syn Dee
3.Chee Kong (Chin)
4.Ju Vern
5.Candy
6.Cappy
7.Jason
8.Victoria
9.Yu Peng
10.Sylvester.

15. Who is no.2 having a relationship WITH?
Hmm. Not sure about who IS but know who WAS. Don't think she has anyone new yet.

16. Is no.3 a male or a FEMALE?
A male. But sometimes I do wonder. Candy and Cappy claims that "he" is a girlgirl. lol.

17. If no.7 and no.1 get TOGETHER, would it be a good?
My jaw would drop real hard. Its not a bad thing but not entirely a good thing either.It would become the hottest topic among 5sc1(2008) people though.

18. What is no.1 studying ABOUT?
Hmm. About Economics and stuff. I guess. Whoops. :P

19. When was the last time you chatted with THEM?
Hmm a range between hours and weeks.

20. IS no.4 SINGLE?
I wonder....... The last time I asked she said yes. Tell me if I'm wrong girl. =P

21. Say something about no.2
Ahh Syn Dee. She's got a bunch of great ideas in her mind. Lifts up your spirit by cracking jokes. She's very determined and strong(mentally) but shows her sensitive side at times ( well everyone does). Hmm Overall... someone who really cares about her friends. =)

22. What do you think about no.5 & no.6 being TOGETHER?
They are always together. Lol. ( They're close friends ok? Not that TYPE of relationship) Well anyways when they are together.... you can prepare to enjoy a show. They are hillarious together.

23. Describe no.9
Oh my god-brother ar? He is very caring, loves freedom, err VERY MOODY/EMO but is committed in whatever he does. He lacks a bit of sense of security and confidence. Well. Thats what I see.

24. What will you do if no.6 and no.7 FIGHT?
The probability of that happening is very near zero. I don't think they even know each other. But if they do..... I think I'll help Cappy. Lol.

25. Do you like NO.8?
Yes. She's a very nice girl.

Yay! Finally done!

2009-05-23T17:26:00.002+08:00

I open my eyes and I see a beautiful garden.
Everything is so lovely and perfect.
But I'm in a cage.
I see but I can't feel.
It's a reality in fantasy.

I've always thought that I had a clear path ahead of me.
Since when did I have to constantly remind myself?

Everything around me is perfect.

But something is missing.

2009-05-19T21:48:00.004+08:00

Today on the way to lunch with Cappy , Candy and Chee Kong ( we were walking along the shops) I saw this girl with long hair in white frantically waving at me way ahead, coming at our direction.

I was like, whats with her?

"终于见到你了!!"
It was Yinthong. Lol. Can't believe my blurness. I could only recognise her when she called me.
Then came along Joslyn and Sasa.
It was nice to meet them. =) They seem like they're coping well with college life.

Called the Marketing Department person today after receiving sms from her.
Me: Can't come during 5.30 pm tomorrow I've got an exam. May I know why am I supposed to meet you?
Person : Oh, you applied for scholarship right? You know you're supposed to work for us? Yea Tomorrow you just have to drop by and I'll discuss with you....
Me : I haven't had the confirmation from you guys yet.
Person :........... Really? Oh I think most probably you got it and your agreement is still under processing. I'll check for you. But anyways you have to come tomorrow, if can't......

and she continued with a lot more "come and work for us" stuff.

Hmmm UCSI must be quite short of staff. So desperate for our services.

***
First paper tomorrow. S1. 1 and half hours.
Nervous. Die.
Don't think I'm really prepared for this paper.
It better be an easy paper.

2009-05-15T11:34:00.002+08:00

Is it just me or am I the only one around still playing like mad, not taking the coming exams seriously?
Its definitely the latter isn't it?
Yay!

I am so doomed.

Starts chanting.

Jia wei you must study Jia Wei you don't know everything yet Jia wei you must study Jia Wei you don't know everything yet.....

I think I need a stronger charm.

2009-05-10T12:05:00.003+08:00

freeexampapers.com doesn't rock as much as it use to be anymore.
I'm out of question papers to download.

I need to write instead of just staring blankly at the textbook.
Grrr... when can this be over?

2009-05-06T14:30:00.003+08:00

This is soyfee.

It is made by combining hyper-sweet soya milk and nescafe coffee powder.
It tastes real good and its easy to prepare.

I'm so addicted to it =D

Btw, I Passed my LAN Subjects!!
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!

Now I'm praying hard to get A's for Edexcel.

2009-05-01T21:42:00.002+08:00

I want Krispy Kreme. =(

**********

Today my brother and his girlfriend came over for dinner and he announced that they're engaged.
Finally...... he first mentioned it like last December?
Well, its about time. They've been together like since form 4 or 5 ? Makes it around 7 to 8 years.
Now, thats SOMETHING.
But it seems that the wedding will have to wait a little longer. Awww.
Anyways... Congrats, bro!

*********

I still want Krispy Kreme.

Clothes!

2009-04-29T21:34:00.004+08:00

This is my wardrobe.
Such a sad and devastating state.
Every morning I stare at this thinking what to wear to class.
And I'll start feeling sorry for myself.
I seriously need more clothes and shoes and bags.
Sigh.

Anyone wants to go shopping with me after exams?

Almost The End of 1st Sem

2009-04-24T18:00:00.004+08:00

Presenting........
UCSI University A Levels January 2009 Intake Group B students

Tadaa! This was taken a very long time ago during our bio experiment in March.
I think its our one and only class photo.
Love it.

This was created by Victoria.
Its so uber cute!!
Love this too!

Hmm I know its weird to post this pictures like only NOW ( yes our 1st semester is ending)
But its the end of the 1st semester that has got me randomly thinking about our class.
So many things I learned this sem.Its all thanks to these people.
And I'm really grateful that I got to met them.

Just a random thought in the middle of our revision week.( Exam's coming in May and June!)
Good Luck everyone for the exams!

2009-04-19T21:40:00.002+08:00

Yay! Got my new camera handphone today! Finally.
Sony Erricson K810i
Love it.
Thanks Mum and Dad!
Not forgetting my old Nokia handphone too. Thank you for serving me for this past 2 years...Muaks!

Enough with the excitement. Time to study for my exams seriously. Starting tomorrow.
Have to really train myself on speed and accuracy.
The problem is we're experimental white mice that are subjected to the new syllabus that just started last year. Very few exercises to do. =(

I'm already quite bored of the text book even when I haven't open it. Sigh.

Friendship

2009-03-26T22:12:00.003+08:00

3 different friends.
3 different ways to get hurt.
I thought I could finally settle down and embrace the moment.
I took it for granted.
That's why I'm hurt again.

I need confirmation. I need security. I need truth and honesty. I need to reach out more and understand.
I want it all to be REAL.

Cold War

2009-03-25T21:42:00.003+08:00

"Hurry
Hurry
You put my head in such a flurry
Flurry
Freckle freckle what makes you so special?
What makes you so special?
I'm gonna leave you
I'm gonna teach you
How we're all alone
How we're all alone"
~w.a.m.s. by Fall Out Boy

You shall not be the one who will affect my quality of life.
I'm not the one responsible for your anger.
I have my life to live.
I know why you're doing this.
But that doesn't give you the right to just treat me like that.
I'm sorry if you are hurt.
But guess what? I think you are on the winning side as well.
You got me a little affected when I thought I wouldn't be.

Gone.

2009-03-20T21:54:00.003+08:00

It's so scary to lose control of even a part of your body.
It feels like you're going to lose ALL of it.
The same goes to life.
I think I'm already missing some pieces.

Smile, it doesnt cost you anything.

2009-03-18T20:03:00.004+08:00

"If everyone cared and nobody cried"
~If Everyone Cared by Nickelback

The world would do a lot better with more smiles and hugs and sunshine.
What we need is care.
If only there is no "If".

On Results day ( 12-3-2009)

2009-03-14T14:32:00.005+08:00

It was a totally bizarre day.

Early in the morning I was nervous. Couldn't stand or sit still.

By noon I could swear that my heart almost stopped functioning.

I was overwhelmed and shocked and relieved and happy after that moment.

Filled with happiness when I saw my friends.... almost in tears
Went on a spontanneous trip to midvalley with Ju Vern, Gowrie, Sheau Wei, Jun-Wen, Jason, Lung Wang and Chuen Hoe.
Lunch and photo session with the gang! Really enjoyed it.
We separated into the Movie gang and the Lepak gang. Chee Kong, Wai Zack, Yoong Chieh and Chee Soon joined later on.
Lepak gang, which consisted of Jun-wen, Gowrie, Sheau Wei and me walked around.... then Sheau Wei left early. Rest of us went to Starbucks!YAY! To the joy of Gowrie and me.

After Jun-Wen left, Gowrie and I stumbled upon a very RUDE guy.
Rude guy came from the opposite direction with his friends.... then started POINTING at Gowrie and I and said " Yang ini untuk kamu, yang baju merah ini untuk aku"
STUPID CRAPPY GUY!! We only appeared in front of him like for that 2 seconds and this is what he can think of. Should have just slapped him there and then.

Later at night... I was touched.
Syn Dee made me feel very appreciated. I couldn't have asked for more.
I received an unexpected call from Indonesia. Sai Ho called just to ask how was the results. That was nice of him.=)

I couldnt sleep that night. A very memorable day. Partly because of the coffee too. ;p

What I did. :P

2009-03-10T21:48:00.004+08:00

Back in Form 4 and Form 5 where Ju Vern and I would sit beside each other...
Both of us had a common hobby ( habit) of eavesdropping into other people's conversations while doing our homework.
3 8 people we are... lols
(Yes, 5Sc1 people I'm very sorry, but you all know how boring it is in class sometimes and some of you just talk LOUD)
We would be smiling ( laughing hysterically inside) to some of the conversations we hear.
Its real entertaining.
Especially Chee Kong's conversations with any of his friends. ( Well, not only particularly Chee Kong, there are others I can't remember for now)
How I missed those times.

Otaku- Jia Wei

2009-03-06T22:06:00.002+08:00

CK:我看你差不多要变宅女了！一个月才出一次！

是的。我是个宅女啊！！！整天呆在家的，又很少出街的。。
不过，其实我很喜欢出街的，我很想念买衣服买鞋的兴奋，也很想念跟朋友谈天看戏。。。
可惜，每次想跟朋友出街时，全都不得空！不然就是朋友约我，我不方便！！
气死人啦！！
但是，我又必须努力读书。。
哎，到最后。。我还是宅女一个。

Moral presentation-over!

2009-03-04T22:20:00.004+08:00

Yes. Moral presentation finally over. WOOHOO!
I was suprisingly not that nervous when I did the intro for our presentation...
Wheter it was good or not.. I'm not really sure... lols.
Nanthini said that I still shook a little.
Anyhows... everything went well... until Ms Syikin decided to stop us.
Everything was like abrupt end. She didn't stop the other groups! UNFAIRNESS.
The Q&A session...... was haha... so fake. and maybe lame at the same time. Imagine us responding like that in normal classes when teacher asks a question.... lol.

Well anyways... here are some pics.Our break between bio and maths class.
Stephanie and Lai Yee ( Cappy)

Vivian and me.Kiir and me.Preparing....Me doing the presentation.

And lastly, my favourite pic of the day:

Group photo with my friends!( group members)
From left: Nanthini, Kiir, Vivian, Victoria, Candy, Rosalind, me and Neena.
A bunch of great people they are.Thank you for the hard work everyone! =D

Amazed.

2009-03-03T21:52:00.003+08:00

Today I amazed myself twice.
Firstly, I was amazed by how bad my memory was.
I keep losing track on my homework. It's always missing.

Neena: Ei Jia Wei lend me your bio report please.
JW: Wait arr... I look through my file.
JW: ITS GONE!!! NOOO Where is it? Rosalind you take already ah?
Ros: No, yesterday i returned to you already lah. I think Kiir has it.
JW rushed to Kiir : KIIR!! You taking my bio report???
Kiir: No, I handed it back to you yesterday.... and you said "Oh" and kept it in your file.
JW: ITS GONE!!! HOW!?? ( almost in tears and waved hands frantically )
Kiir: Its in your moral file lah.... yesterday I saw you keep in there.
JW rumaged through moral file.... and found it.
This whole conversation was repeated... around like 1 hour later... with the same bio report. What's just wrong with me lah?

Secondly, I used a chinese proverb unconciously today.
It flew out of my mouth just like that... and it isnt one that I always use.
JW:我的功课都不翼而飞！！！( My homework flew away without wings!)
Right after that I was like.... WOW....
I still remember my Chinese stuff. Amazing.

My voice is dull. Only knew today.

2009-03-02T20:55:00.004+08:00

They say your voice don't exactly sound like what you hear it as.
I really agree with that.

Today for our moral studies class we had group presentation.
So there was this group of girls talking about war.
Then when a particular girl was presenting, well actually reading straight from the powerpoint, all my friends suddenly turned to my direction.

JW: " What?"
Friends:" She sounds familiar. She sounds like you lah."

That instant I was like blowed out of my mind. I never knew my voice sounded so ... DULL.
So I really paid attention to the girl's voice ( my voice), and the more I heard it, the more bizzare I felt. Inside I'm like :" Serious? This is my voice!? My voice not like this one larrr!!!!"

So people... now I know how horrible my voice sounds. Don't need to hestitate to criticise my voice. I totally understand if you did. =(

Nokia? Sony Erricson?

2009-02-27T22:39:00.003+08:00

I want a new handphone.
A camera handphone. So I can take photos for my bloggie.
The one I have now is a third-hand-pass-me-down. Old. Battery always dying.
Would like to post a photo of it, but that requires using the camera.
I'ts troublesome.
The more the reason I should get a new phone.
Grr.

Internet is back!

2009-02-25T21:36:00.002+08:00

Yay! Internet connection back again. Some of you might noticed but the whole of last week I wasn't online at all. Because my modem went literally KABOOM! It was my fault.

* Last Monday *
Jia Wei was typing her moral assignment "essay" on the Solutions to war while onlining.
It rained heavily and it was thundering. Jia Wei ignored the thundering and continued typing despite being aware of the risks. Then it happened.

* BOOM!!*
*Click!*
Right after the "click" sound a window appeared.

You are disconnected from the Internet. Reconnecting in 60 seconds.

Jia Wei : " What the hell?!"
Jia Wei couldn't connect to the internet anymore. The modem was burnt.... broken. There were more complications but lazy to type it lah.

So 1 week passed by (it wasn't easy) and now everything is quite repaired. So here am I blogging again!

So the important lesson here : Never go online when there's a thunderstorm no matter how important it is - or face the consequences. Do not underestimate the power of NATURE.

1st Lab session

2009-02-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

Today we had our 1st chemistry lab session.
We did titration ! ( Claps hand with the Pn Chin face.)
It was dead boring and I was half asleep the whole session.
The only cool thing was all the apparatus and materials (nice and clean) were already on the table for us ( prepared by lab assistants) and we all wore lab coats.
I liked the orange colour of the neutral solution! ( we used methyl orange )
Practically thats it.

Happy Valentine's Day!

2009-02-14T11:46:00.005+08:00

To my family, relatives, friends, classmates, pets, pillow and bolster:

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

I love all of you!! Thank you for being so special.

**

Chain mails..
I don't get why they just have to curse you at the end.
Might as well don't wish me at the beginning.
It doesn't matter anyway.
I've deleted enough chain mails to have bad luck / the worst valentines day for my entire life.
I'm still very contented with my single life = )

**

I believe in the guys making the first move.
Just exactly last year a guy finally picked the courage and talked to a girl for the first time after 5 years.
She smiled at him.
I think she was waiting for him.

**

There's still so much that I dunno about you.

**

Photos

2009-02-09T22:32:00.003+08:00

Photos are so amazing. They stop your time. They capture your youth.
Pity it doesn't remembers your mental thoughts.
I wonder why I've never been able to smile properly when I was younger. My mouth would just curve downwards in photos.
The thing that I'm most curious about is why didn't my parents asked me to smile.
So weird.

The Pond and the Frogs

2009-02-08T13:56:00.004+08:00

I remember in form 2 almost the whole class used to play a game in one whole group that goes like this:

The 1st person says: " One little frog"
2nd person : " Jump to (into) the pond "
3rd person : " Oink"
Next person :" 2 little frogs "
Next person no 2 : " 2 little frogs "
Next person no 3 : " Jump to ( into) the pond "
Next person no 4 : " Jump to ( into ) the pond "
Next person no 5 : " Oink "
Next person no 6 : "Oink"

And it goes on to 3, 4, 5..... frogs followed by the" jump to the pond" and "oink".
I bet this game is gaining popularity in Perak now. No. Whole of Malaysia.

4 frogs jumped into the pond lately.
One of the frog used to be a duck but claimed that it itself was the "ugly duckling" of its own group. Abandoned. Unwanted. Alone.
Poor ugly duckling ( now frog). The rulers of the pond welcomed it to the pond community. Abundance of food and resources.
The ducks were angry and shocked. The whole animal kingdom in fact.
" How could a duck transform into a FROG!!? This is WRONG!!It defies nature!! "

Yes.
The pond.... a very dangerous and mysterious place. It's waters are deep and dark... contains lots of hidden danger. It has a powerful whirlpool that tries to suck more animals in.
Most mysterious and cunning of them all was the RULER. Most of the time.... it's nowhere to be found. But it has plenty of tricks behind its sleeves.
I think they have a group of tadpoles that is readily growing into frogs.
Such manipulaters the pond community are.

Soon the whole earth will be in control of the pond.
The ducks can hardly do anything.
The other animals are angry.
But it seems that we have no chance do we?

Maths lesson

2009-02-06T16:11:00.003+08:00

I learned a very important lesson today.
NEVER ever ask my part-time-and-maternity-loving maths lecturer any MATH questions.
You'll get scolded for asking too many questions or for not being 'SMART' enough.
I'd rather have him scold us for not asking any (maths) questions. ( ahh the irony )
I really agree with his son's suggestion.
He should go back to university to study maths all over again-just for the fun.
He'll get all the fun for being the perfect maths person.
It'll do all of us a great favour.
We'll be so proud.

Lullabye

2009-02-04T18:05:00.004+08:00

I would like to have a lullabye that sings me to sleep everynight.
And as soon as the lullabye finishes I would fall asleep nice and sound and warm and dreamless.
Just like a baby.
How I wish life would be as simple as that.

Lullabye by Fall Out Boy

Honey is for bees silly bear
Besides there's jellybeans everywhere
It's not what it seems in the land of dreams
Don't worry your head just go to sleep

It doesn't matter how you feel
Life is just a Ferris wheel
It's always up and down, don't make a sound

When you wake up the world will come around
When you wake up the world will come around

It's just the sweet weather
and the peacock feathers
in the morning it will all be better
It's not what it seems in the land of dreams
Don't worry your head just go to sleep

When you wake up the world will come around
When you wake up the world will come around

Honey is for bees silly bear
Besides there's jellybeans everywhere
It's not what it seems in the land of dreams
Don't worry your head just go to sleep

Chinese New Year

2009-01-26T22:48:00.002+08:00

Chinese New Year is a very memorable event to me.
Besides receiving ang pows and reunion dinner and all... I used to like Chinese New Year for another reason.

Years ago I remember dad used to get lots of hampers days before Chinese New Year. There would be trucks delivering hampers with pretty wrappings and ribbons to our house and I would be very excited. Why? Because we get to unwrap them.

It brings me a lot of joy when we sit down together and unwrap the hamper. We would have scissors and cutters to cut through the plastic and cellophane tape. Then we would remove the gifts one by one. There would be the bottle of wine, cans of soft drinks, biscuits/cookies, abalone , ginseng, mushrooms, dried oysters , sugar-coated jellies and etc. I remember 1 year we got a Crabtree and Evelyn gift box. Usually 2/3 of these goodies will be given away to friends and relatives , but I will still be very happy with the remainings.

Hampers have been cut down this few years, though. This year we only got a small one. I am quite dissapointed. But we can't help the fact that the economy is really bad now and people can't afford to spend extra. People might think its just a hamper, but this year there's this something that is missing. The gifts? Yes of course but maybe also the spirit of giving and receiving.

Anyways, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR everyone!!

Wedding!

2009-01-18T20:23:00.007+08:00

My newly wed cousin brother and his wife = )

It was my cousin's wedding yesterday. He's 28 this year and is the 3rd cousin to get married in my father's side of the family.

The eldest cousin brother that is married with 2 cute daughters!

Me and my sisters were given the task to bring guests to their seats. The wedding dinner wasn't the usual chinese restaurant indoor cuisine, it was a garden buffet party style where you can walk around and enjoy the scenery. Something very different and refreshing. No long waits and cramped corners. You choose your menu. Cool huh? People, in the future for your wedding you may want to consider garden party dinner.... the atmosphere is wonderful! (Provided the weather is nice, that is )

More pics

Mummy, sisters and me.

Arch made of flowers

The dining table under tents.

Cake cutting ceremony!

The toasting session ( yam seng ) led by my grandpa, so energetic!

My happy aunt and uncle with the emcee ( girl with mic) .

Gu Zheng performer.

Wonderful night. Everything went nicely as planned. Was glad that I could be of help to my cousin and uncle = ) . I'm very happy for my cousin brother and his wife.

Cousin asked me when will it be my turn. Haha, not sure, most likely 10 years later when I'm 28 and manage to find Mr Right.... considering that I'll be somewhere that age when I graduate from uni. Or maybe later when I start working with stable income. Or maybe never at all. However it might be, for now I think I will concentrate on studies and just go with the flow, relationships can come later, shouldn't be thinking of these now.

Which reminds me, my brother was talking about engaging his girlfriend the other day. Maybe I can expect another wedding dinner coming? That'll be wonderful = )

I think it's enough with the wedding topic... I'll stop now.. but before that... to my friends who are reading this, remember to invite me to your wedding dinner when you have it , okay? Deal!! Thanks ya!

P.S. If I do get married people, please remind me I would like to have it the garden party style too!!

Growing up.

2009-01-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

Everything's jumbled up.

There were tears and sun shine today.

I couldn't help thinking about the tears.

It was fearful. I don't want it to happen. Again.

This year.... won't be an easy one.

So many... challenges. Hopefully it would be the ones I can overcome.

Maybe I should put more hopes into tomorrow.

Maybe its time I grow up.

Stuck.

2009-01-13T22:09:00.002+08:00

My force to study is gone. I was so well-equipped last year. WHERE HAS IT GONE??

Can't get myself to study.
Seeing those words make me faintish.
It's only January. Lecturers are making me feel that May is coming tomorrow.
Exams! So much more to cover!
I need motivation.
NOW.

Mimi

2009-01-07T17:10:00.005+08:00

I think this will be my first and maybe last post about Mimi.

This is Mimi.

Around 1 year ago, we found Mimi in a box under the Kembara. Mum heard it mewing from inside the car. She took sympathy on it ( him) and brought it home. He was our first kitten after so many years.

This is Mimi playing with us upon his first night in our house.

So adorable isn't it?

Well... Mimi really brought a major change in our life. We had an extra pet, companion, someone to talk to, someone to love. Even my dad who doesn't fancy cats started stroking it once in a while.

Mimi was a really aggresive and hyper-active cat. It would grab your hand/leg/ any biting object available and start gnawing. Thanks to that we had many battle scars on our hands and legs. My mum used to nickname it ThunderCat as well, it runs so fast!

Mimi loves the sun as well!

Well... but as Mimi started growing up... he was bored with the confined space of the kitchen... he wanted to explore the outside world.. he meowed every single second for a chance to walk outside. We gave in. Things started to change then.

Mimi started fighting with other cats. He always loses. And we will be left with his wounds to treat. " Naughty Mimi!!" we would scold, but that would not stop him. There are times where he will be hurt so badly he need to wear a "bonnet"(Thats what I call it cause it does look like one) . But still we adore him.

Mimi was a stubborn and wild cat. He wouldn't listen and he wouldn't learn from his mistakes. He kept going out for fights and each time he comes back the wounds gets more serious. The latest wound was the most serious one. A chunk of meat came off his right front leg. He limped for 1 month. My mum couldnt take it anymore. It was a neverending cycle. He would get hurt, stay at home to treat the wounds, feel better, start meowing to go out, sneak out, then get hurt again.

Decision time.
1) Leave the cat in the wild and cruel world outside.
2) Give it the injection of eternal sleep.

I couldn't believe my ears when my mum mention this. I can't afford... I can't and won't decide.
Mum decided to give it a last chance.Yesterday we let him out... see wheter he comes back safely or not. After a few hours, he did. We were so happy.. he came back safe. But at night, he made his worst mistake. He fought a fight that will bring him his death.

This morning, I had to go for class. I couldn't be by his side on the last minute. I bid Mimi goodbye before I left. This was how he look when I last left him.

Now he's gone. When I came back from classes, I saw a small grave in front of my house. His basket is empty. All that's left of him now are just memories and photos.

I'm so sorry Mimi. This is the best for everyone. We really love you. It wasn't easy. I hope you are in a better place now. Please, rest in peace.

Can't stand the tears people... sorry... think I'll stop now.

College life

2009-01-06T21:03:00.002+08:00

I dunno how am I gonna survive the rest of my A-levels life. Today I had Chemistry, Maths and Biology continously.Its all the subjects I'm taking and each subject takes 2 hours. Which means I was in a classroom for 6 consecutive hours. No break in between.

My lecturers? Haha. 2 old ah beks and a very evil/strict/unpleasant biology lecturer named Miss Preeti. ( she wasn't really)

Not only the syllabus and exams are killing me. Even our daily school life and classes is. I will end up being all bored, packed with info that is not entirely entering the brain and lethargic every single day.

Help.

David Cook + Fall Out Boy = Wild Jia Wei

2009-01-02T11:42:00.006+08:00

Way before SPM last year , I made 2 promises.
1. If David Cook wins American Idol, I'll definitely buy his album.
2. I'll get Fall Out Boy's latest album, Folie a Deux.

I've fulfilled both of them!!
SO HAPPY~~

David Cook's album that is named after him. It's a rock album, but there are the slow tunes. None of the songs managed to make me go head-rocking (well, maybe slightly) , but it's still a better-than-average, not-bad album. Dunno wheter it's just me, or his popularity is going down. I think it's the new hairstyle and him having a girlfriend thing. Whatever it is, GO DAVID COOK!! Still be supporting you! = )

Folie a Deux by Fall Out Boy. They showed a whole different stlye from the previous album, Infinity on High. As expected of them. Nevertheless, all of the songs were GREAT, all head-rocking. One thing about Fall Out Boy, they dare to be different. They're unique. They're songs are no average boring rock songs, its a whole new thing! LOOOOVE THEM!! Patrick's ( lead singer ) voice is just so amazing~~~ I got charmed. As usual, I can't figure out the song naming and lyrics, but still.. it makes them even more unique! Anyway, Keep up the good work Fall Out Boy!! ; )

People who are reading this, I highly recommend this 2 albums. Note that both are rock albums though. Everyone says I have wierd song taste but I Don't Care ! This is me and my music.

* Sparkles with happiness * =D

Orientation!

2008-12-30T20:41:00.000+08:00

I went to UCSI's Orientation today. Reached campus at 9.00 am. Felt so ALONE. While I was just sitting in the cafetaria waiting and wondering how am I gonna pass through the whole day, a girl pulled a chair over, sat and started the intro. So coincedently she's gonna do A- Levels as well.( Her name is Rosalind, by the way. )

Ta-daa! My first friend in A-Levels!! ( Wasn't as difficult as I thought )
Yes, thanks to her, making friends were a LOT easier. She's the really outgoing type. Soon enough we found a bunch of pals that were initially alone ( like me ) and doing the same course.

The orientation was real BORING. 9.30am - 1.30 pm were all talks about rules and regulations, speeches, and etc. What a way to start an orientation for the freshies.

This shirt I folded here was kinda of our saviour. I folded it, my friends around me urged me to teach them. They got hooked on, started to fold every piece of paper/pamphlete available into shirts while the lecturer/dean on the stage was still blah-ing away. Well, at least something to kill boredom.

The evil part. A-Levels. I'm taking 3 subjects only (Biology, Chemistry and Maths). According to the calendar, trials is due April. I'm so doomed. Head of A-Levels says to study from day 1. ( Cry.... NOOOOOOOO!! )

Orientation continuing tomorrow. At least its only half a day. Thank god. Free lunch!!!

Haihs, honestly, I'm still not prepared for college life. Not looking forward to this. No turning back though. Just do it!

Confession

2008-12-23T21:07:00.000+08:00

"Have you ever wanted to dissapear?"

~ 20 Dollar Nose Bleed

Yes. Countless times. My sense of belonging is near zero.
That's why I question. I confuse. I hestitate. I turn away. I leave. I remain silent. I smile. I cry.

People are like mirrors, you see your own reflections through them.
I've seen distorted images of myself. Blurred images. Additional features. Sometimes it's pitch black. Most of the time, I look alien. I'm a pain in the eye.

I don't know since when I felt this way. But it's been there and it's killing me inside.
When Syn Dee mentioned about the Malacca trip I agreed going. I didn't know why. I think it was the sake of making her happy. It was not because of what it should be.

We went. I finally found a purpose. It was too late. It was on our last night/day.
All I need was people to be honest with me. All I need was to reach out.

I was relieved. It was the best trip ever. I felt a sense of achievement and everything feels like it'll be okay. It was supposed to be the end. It was my beginning.

It doesn't matter what they think. All I need to know is that I'm being appreciated/loved. All that matters is that I am able to appreciate/love them in return.

Thank you, 5 sc1 for teaching me such an important lesson.

Chemistry Night

2008-12-20T22:28:00.000+08:00

Went to Eastin Hotel with my mum to receive my RM 200 and cert last night. ( I still have no idea how I got chosen for the Top Scorer Awards ). There were a whole bunch of people, varied from Tan Sris, Pn Sris, Datuks and Datins to small fry students like me and the others and of course the Institut Kimia Malaysia members. (Oh, the Deputy Minister of Science, Technology and Innovation was there as well!)

Went to the table to join the other award recipients.... I was the only girl. So sad. The other boys are from Penang and Kedah. There were 4 Kedahans! ( Kedahans are the smarter people !!) Only one Kuala Lumpurian :( . The funniest thing that is the IKM staff just suddenly decides that SMK Taman Desa is situated in Kepong. ( Note pic)

Dinner was really nice. Chinese Food. One thing I didn't like about it was the waiter that served our table . When he poured the soup into our bowls.. it flows through his whole palm and fingers...... Our table of people had no choice but to keep an eye close.

More pics

Overall this whole event is a good experience for me. Get to meet other smart students from other states. They're real friendly. :)
Guess that's all!! I'm sorry about the Malacca post but I guess I have to post that another day. Ciaoz!

Busy week

2008-12-18T21:21:00.000+08:00

Back from a spontanneous 2 days 1 night Taiping trip. Went on Wednesday. Thats 1 week after the Melaka trip. Haven't post anything about the 2 trips... but I will,eventually. This week has totally been a busy one.... sigh... Next post will be on the Melaka trip!

Malaysian Food? Think Twice.

2008-12-07T20:58:00.000+08:00

There is no more Malaysian food in Kuala Lumpur. Why? All have been Myanmarised. Behind every dish is a Burmese. And what happens? Our food is full with MSG and oil. We have too many foreign labourers. It's destroying our Malaysian culture.

I remember a Moral question from our Trial Papers:
Apakah faedah penggunaan buruh asing terhadap negara?

I'm starting to question that myself as well. Our food quality is dropping rapidly. Our locals are being lazier. Crime rates are increasing. Do we need any more harm to our society?

In Slumberland....

2008-12-06T10:47:00.000+08:00

This was what happened.
Jia Wei was in school. Pui Wan was right next to her studying BM.

huh? Pui Wan , why are you studying?
Jia Wei, we're having BM Paper 2 today!

It was the second last day of SPM. There was still BM and EST to go. Jia Wei thought that SPM was over. She hasn't study anything that is BM-related. And Jia Wei went amok of course. Funny thing is Pui Wan wouldn't share her notes with Jia Wei.

what!!!??Are you serious?? I HAVEN'T STUDY!!!!
(There were more tantrums of course, but I shall not waste any more space.)

Suddenly Mr Saiful decided to have a spotcheck. Jia Wei found that her bag was full of her Trial papers, Intervensi papers and all of the previous exams papers.... but no BM reference books. Mr Saiful scolded her for being stupid.

Finally,exam time! Jia Wei went to toilet before exam, she was charged RM 4.40 for the dirty stinky cubicle! ( Note how auspicious the number is ).She came back, rumaged through her bag but there's no exam slip! By now Jia Wei's friends have already entered the classroom listening to the inviligator's instructions leaving her alone to wave her hands frantically. Evil Mrs Inviligator wouldn't let Jia Wei take the BM paper and insist she looks for the "forgot-to-bring-examslip-documentpaper" from school teachers while her friends are taking the exam.

Jia Wei felt insulted and mocked when she saw some of her friends playing badminton on the way. No SMKTD teacher wanted to appear. She also saw Syn Dee and Kum Foeng playing with 5sc2 students beside a river.

Then I woke up. SPM's over. It felt so real that for a moment there I thought I really had to kiss my 'A' for BM goodbye. I don't know wheter to curse my dream or just laugh at it's randomness. One thing for sure- I'm just so glad SPM's all over and its just a dream!

Wonders Of Studio Ghibli

2008-12-03T15:57:00.000+08:00

I've been watching back some Studio Ghibli movies. They're so awesome. Spirited Away, Howl's Moving Castle and Princess Mononoke are my favourites. The thing thats so wonderful about Studio Ghibli is their art. Still using handdrawings!The music complements the drawings...very touching! Credits should be given to Joe Hisaishi! Studio Ghiblis themes are actually almost the same, won't run away from environmental problems, nature, war and peace, human nature, very educational actually. This is what I call a good cartoon movie. Too bad people nowadays are just so engrossed with CG , braincells killing animations. Support Studio Ghibli!

Post-SPM To Do List

2008-11-30T21:04:00.000+08:00

1. Make a bonfire out of my secondary school books.
2. Sell the ashes of the remains of my secondary school books.
3. Get the latest FallOutBoy and David Cook album. ( A must! )
4. Blog!
5. Pierce my ears... finally!
6. Go out with friends .... watch movies!
7. Learn driving.
8.Bake! Then eat like mad! And might end up purging...
9. Travelling maybe....Hiking.... need to burn away all those excess flabs and calories.
10.Get a part time job.
11. Bug my friends.
12. Let them bug me back.
13. Dye my cat black.... for fun.. then bleach it white again..

Ok.... lets just say I'm starting to get bored..... but its so much better then studying and examing. Being bored is such a bliss.... better enjoy the boredness while I can!

First Post!

2008-11-26T21:19:00.000+08:00

Woo hoo, my first post!

Spm is gonna be over. Last subject due tomorrow! Ah, the excitement!

Should be studying for EST or at least pretend to study, but oh well, couldnt resist the temptation.

To all my fellow friends who still have accounts and other subjects, don't worry , you'll get to enjoy
soon. Just think of that extra 'A'. Wish you guys good luck!